melancholyyyy

oh more drama!

gah, i hate this whole...things happening thing, why can't things just STAY normal for a while?! >_<

gehh...

as many may know, a week ago it was VALENTINES DAY

so happy belated valentines day to all, even though nobody reads this..

anyway, mega hecka drama happened last week

remember the guy in the polo tshirt ? my dearest good friend *bleeped his name out*

well yeah, he likes this girl, and he got her a gift for vday...
of which gift i GLADLY managed to get him a discount and free offer for! all thanks to my acquantances working at the stall at the new years festival that he actually got her that gift, ALL THANKS TO ME.... frustration much...
well he got her a gift, gave it to her, but he was turned down, poor guy
makes me kinda sad knowing he wasn't too happy, but he's alright now...

and for some reason, i can't get over it, why? because i'm waiting for something, i dont even know WHAT, sif he'll end up wanting me i know that much! but i'm waiting for something still
and what makes it all worse is... maybe i'm falling for someone else now...OH THIS IS STUPID.
but he's so nice..and sweet..

i swear ! i hate cliche
but this was very cliche, 4 days ago, me and 2 friends went to the village nearby to bum around for a while, and 'him' and his friends were there, as i bought sushi for my friend he gave me 2 bucks to buy him some sushi too, so blah blah blah, i ended up dropping my roll of sushi

*stupid me*

i'm so clumsy
but we ate the dropped roll anyway, kinda icky i know, but who cares
then he walks up with a california roll in a plastic sushi box and hands it to me
i asked 'what for?'
and he says 'i'm sorry' blah blah blah, i can't even remember what he said because i was too busy staring at his face as he apologised and did his little...mocking face, [literally, this is not my imagination, he makes funny faces on purpose when you're talking to him sometimes, its so funny, but you wouldn't understand..hahaha]
and yeah, i just laughed and said thanks.. i guess?

well I DONT KNOW, its not just this that made me think this way ! ..i just dont know..

super ultra mega confused right now, i have to get over *polo tshirt guy*
but it doens't help if i end up wanting someone else too!

ohh..this is bad.... gehh..what now?!?!

argh, i dont know, neither of them like me back, i'm PRETTY SURE they dont, but i'll just have to hold on and see what happens then ayy?

well..here goes plunging into nothingness.. >_<

bye for now~ :D