birthday + city

Today we went to the city! Hurrah!

It was for Mumbai (neeraj)’s birthday party! What a great guy (:
He is now seventeen tehhe

But today, getting dropped off at the train station I ran into AIVAN! What a lovely surprise! Really! Who knew, just the one day I was going out and taking the train avian was going out too! It was great :D

Went to the city bought two ties! One for mumbai’s birthday gift, and one for jasonface. I promised Jason I’d buy him a tie because his dodgy tie from cotton on wasn’t a very pretty one ):

But yes, me and Jason had a stakeout outside cue city waiting for it to open and once it did we were the first people in that day! Hooray! And then we played pool and I kicked his ass

Quote jasons friend ‘I’ll pay you ten bucks if you can beat her’ (her as in reference to me)

Hahaha I don’t know if I should take that as a compliment or an insult really. Did I suck that much? Or was he complimenting me ?
I do not know.

Anyways. Met up with Mumbai and everyone at abouts 11somethings and went to the funhouse, bought movie tickets to the surrogates and then went to play pool some more

Hahaha I felt like such a bogan the whole day coz I was wearing jasons clothes + bag. Whatta bogan. >_>

But hey it was fun, and that’s all that matters

So HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMBAI, hope you had a WONDERFUL DAY :D

change

you're changing...

i'm really happy for you

and i appreciate it a lot

hahaaa

woops i think i'm falling for you again

To let go

To “let go” does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To “let go” is not to enable, but to allow the realization I can’t control another. To “let go” is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To “let go” is not to try to change or blame another, it is to make the most of myself. To “let go” is not to care for, but to care about.

To “let go” is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To “let go” is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To “let go” is not to be in the middle of arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To “let go” is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.

To “let go” is not to deny, but to accept.

To “let go” is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings & to correct them.

To “let go” is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, & to cherish myself in it.

To “let go” is not to criticize & regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be. To “let go” is not to regret the past, but to grow & to live for the future.

To “let go” is to fear less & to love more.

I should really let both of you go. Because frankly, as much I love you both; it confuses me so much.
But if I can’t, we’ll see what happens next :]

ciao! ♥

f-f-f-formal !

formal day last night/morning!
hahaha

got up at ...earlyish.. in the morning and got so bored waiting for time to pass by so i could go pick up ashen's corsage... gosh its so boring WAITING for time...!
went to go pick up the corsage, race home, shower, eat and head out to the makeup/hair stylists place

she did my hair and STUCK ON FAKE EYELASHES
and i think she glued my eyelids shut for a while.

but its okay because i could open them after a while, but phwoah man it looks totally different
like
*leanne looks in mirror*
"WHO THE EFF IS THAT"

my eyes looked bigger and chinker.
like a true asian

hahahaah
and bah! at the hair stylists place they pulled out their cameras and started taking photos
and i'm like '..i dont want any photos...can we leave soon? i want to sleep'

and they were like 'NO TURN THIS WAY...DO THIS..HOLD THIS'
and they were freaking camwhoring on me.
wtf
(i have photos to prove this camwhoring too)

but chyeah, raced home, grabbed stuff together and headed out to alex's place where it started raining as soon as we got there LOL

and the hummer pulled up
and we all WOOed and OHMYGOSHed a whole heap and then piled in :D

the inside of the hummer sounded a bit like this:
The Guys: JAI HO!
The Girls: (in particular lena) SNIFF THE MIST, GO ! QUICK BEFORE IT GOES AWAY

Then we arrived, went in, talked around, took photos, asian squatted (you know, the usual D: )

We went in, listened to some short speeches, exchanged words, ate
Hahaha it was hilarious watching ashen trying to eat that bread with goats cheese
“How do you hold a fork? DAMN IT I EAT WITH MY HANDS! STUFF THIS”

LOL ahh good times
I have to admit, I was uber quiet throughout the whole night
Only because I felt out of place (seriously..a dress AND a tiara?) and formals aren’t really my type of thing but everyone looked absolutely stunning

Going with ashen was really nice though
But.. I have to admit… the guy that looked the best that night would have to be Alan
And the best girl? I don’t know because everyone looked so good D: (especially Kim!) (her date was kinda cute too J )

But wow, everyone looked so amazing XD

Then the formal ended, and truly, I wanted to say goodbye to ashen before he left but he just stalked off somewhere and left quietly… probably because of his parents and the whole formal date issue… I don’t know but I hope he’s doing alright

Then we went home, stopped by maccas to order 4 happy meals and came back to my place to bum and watch movies all night
We played spin the bottle truth or dare! And doing impersonations was fun!
Hahaha Nhu’s Mr Ford impersonation
*places V cardboard on head, happy meal box, walks around like a little kid with a lunchbox*
Ms Adenyi! “are you making fun of my VOIIIIIIIIICE”

LOL
Ahhh..we didn’t get any sleep at all..or barely any anyway

But it was way fun, so I’m gonna go sit on my butt for some more and go ..do something somewhat interesting now
Hahaha

Kudos to the people who organized and put together the formal J
And I can’t wait until the professional photos come out on Wednesday! ( I hope I look decent…!)

Ciao! ♥

today~

today! it is TODAY
because it is currently 12.14am

and the formal is technically today :)

hardkore isn't it? i was so not looking forward to this a few weeks ago and now BAM! in your face, the formal is here D:

but it'll be fun, it has to be!

because i told nghi i would have as doubly fun, for him as well because his formal for him was mediocre
so my formal has to be doubly fun for his sake too :3

and i'm sure it will be, i wonder what its like... wow... i'm curious
and this curiousity makes me excited

but since its so late, i'm just informing the internet world that the formal is tomorrow and i am quite hungry :D

i can't wait to watch jackass during the sleepover though LOL

goodnight! ciao! ♥

open mindedness (:

BE OPEN!

zomg i can't believe its actually happening. i think i've been in denial :)
the formal is actually happening

and it happens in exactly 3 days from today

and i need jewelry

i can't wait to see the pink hummer though... and everyone will so fancy ~ the guys in their dashing little suits and the girls in flowy pretty dresses D:

i wish i could stay home and just watch it all happen.. instead of actually going
i think i'm nervous, i dont know, but i've never been one for these things..

as much as i dont enjoy shopping or dressing up, there will always be a first!

so here goes...

formal here we come... countdown T minus 3 days

PS> i hope i dont embarrass ashen by doing something stupid... i wonder what he feels about going with a complete crazy loony like me (:

conform

i officially declare, i hate you

i dislike you so much.

i can't stand you.

why can't you make life a little simpler for me by making the right decisions for yourself?
i'm letting go, i can't do this anymore because i bore you too much.

in return, why dont you go run along and go find a new girl to impress her with your smoking and shoplifting?

have a good life, because you won't want me there in the future anyway

so fuck you

have fun trying to impress ☺

When things get messed up

I lift my head up

And I get lost in the clouds

good morning!
oh guess what?

terrible day, once again... or am i becoming a pessimist?

Gosh school sucks lately. And everyone has so many issues, I would appreciate it if i could stop worrying right now.

the whole career, QTAC, parents, grandparents, optometry/business/psychology! (no pressure...)

then theres guys, which are total issues within themselves

now that i think about it ... i keep thinking why i ended the relationship
and I think, I only ended it because of fear or responsibility

fear because things could get worse for the both of us and things would never be the same or the responsibility I had as a person to stop hurting my parents, himself, and myself

I didn’ tlove him enough

And he probably doesn’t either, because he’s sick to death-bored talking to me.

But whatever, it’s none of my business anymore
I want to get over it, right now.

I want to hand in my QTAC application without anymore thoughts.
And is it really true that you can’t find a career in the world if you study Psychology?

I like psychology, why can’t I study it? Even if it’s difficult to find a job, I will still be studying Business as a double degree too wont i? Why can’t I study what I want?

Why can’t I study something I’m actually genuinely interested in?

Oh well, that’s life I guess, nothing ever works out.
At least something did though, or is going to; I’ll tell him soon…

Tweet tweet!

i like french fries, they're very cute and small.

especially at maccas where they're really cheap

UNLIKE THE FORMAL!

21st september

bah, it makes me want to barf.

what an expensive lot of spending money spent on one night

oh well, too late now, gonna go have fun on the night!

which reminds me...i have to continue compiling that music playlist for our STRETCH HUMMER

would've been uber cool if we managed to get the stretch FERRARI though... but thats in the UK.. bummer >_>

oh well.

theheheh formal

it finally hit me in the face that we're actually going.

and its next week

hurrah!

*barfs*

ciao & goodnight! :]

oh! and before i leave, i want to leave with a cute little message from twitterer shitmydadsays:

"Here's a strawberry, sorry for farting near you...Hey! Either take the strawberry and stop bitching, or no strawberry, that's the deal."

i wonder what strawberries and french fries together tastes like...

Untitled.

as much as it was a lovely day,
it was also an absolute fucker of a day.

Enough said.
Bye ☺

POKEMONNNNN

OHMYGAWWWWWWD

QCS + exams are over

i am fucking rejoicing

*FUCKING REJOICING*

YAYYYY

oh guess what i did today?
*you ask: Whaaat..? (in a really bored tone)*

i cleaned out my closet todayyy~ and i found a load of toys and junk related to pokemon.

hehe

i think i am pokemon obsessed..just a little bit.

i found a marill plus toy from when i was 12, a HEAP of pokemon keyrings (rayquayza! + 'little star pokemon thing!' and PLUSLE) XD... and hmm little pokemon toys that came out of ice cream (found on my trip to thailand one year) a money box, and a whole heap of pokemon related thingies

which reminds me to go bother dinh about giving me my pikachu toy back.. he's had it for over 8 months *grr*

though its now time to go be a bum

*plays pokemon*

byebye :]