When things get messed up

I lift my head up

And I get lost in the clouds

good morning!
oh guess what?

terrible day, once again... or am i becoming a pessimist?

Gosh school sucks lately. And everyone has so many issues, I would appreciate it if i could stop worrying right now.

the whole career, QTAC, parents, grandparents, optometry/business/psychology! (no pressure...)

then theres guys, which are total issues within themselves

now that i think about it ... i keep thinking why i ended the relationship
and I think, I only ended it because of fear or responsibility

fear because things could get worse for the both of us and things would never be the same or the responsibility I had as a person to stop hurting my parents, himself, and myself

I didn’ tlove him enough

And he probably doesn’t either, because he’s sick to death-bored talking to me.

But whatever, it’s none of my business anymore
I want to get over it, right now.

I want to hand in my QTAC application without anymore thoughts.
And is it really true that you can’t find a career in the world if you study Psychology?

I like psychology, why can’t I study it? Even if it’s difficult to find a job, I will still be studying Business as a double degree too wont i? Why can’t I study what I want?

Why can’t I study something I’m actually genuinely interested in?

Oh well, that’s life I guess, nothing ever works out.
At least something did though, or is going to; I’ll tell him soon…