Well okay, hi 2015

Well okay. This is awkward.
My last post was all about how I might start blogging more often since I had more free time since graduating. But look at me now. Transitioning from hobo uni student and late all nighters have somehow transformed into a 'malicious' routine of working a day job that I absolutely love and coming home to my squishy wombat. Only to fall asleep and get excited about doing it all over again. And the weekends. Oh, the weekends. It feels so good to have time to yourself.

But the best part? My boss.

Shit my boss says.

'This cabinet gives me the shits.'

'Why is it everyone remembers the time I got shingles except me?'

'This idiot is being difficult, can you speak to him about it?'

'What the fuck?'

'This shit is confusing.'

And to think, he makes all the big boss financial decisions around here. What a legend.

Goodbye 2014

 

Okay. So it's December, 2014. Where did the year go?

I've completely stopped blogging altogether to focus on my studies and work (aka try not to die in final year). It was a good year and within a week I'll be graduating, so that'll be fun. Nothing has been happening in this regular life of mine, so there isn't much to blog about. But I did get these cute unicorn slippers which I bought at the end of winter. (They'll find some use come next winter.)

Maybe now that I might have a bit more time on my hands, I might continue blogging..??

Ciao.

LY STOP READING MY BLOG. THIS IS PRIVATE, I HATE YOU. I'M GONNA PUNCH YOU IN THE DICK SO HARD TOMORROW.

 

And drink some medicine, you stupid poo. We are going to buy cough drops for you tomorrow or you'll lose your voice. Asshat.

Lacking the motivation I need

Right now I'm lacking the motivation that I need to finish another 2000 words on this paper on mental disorders that is due tomorrow. So far I've made progress, but I need to make MOAR PROGRESS.

So of course, I have to go blog about how I'm procrastinating and stuff. It finally hit me that I've been at uni for a good four years now and once this paper is done and my two exams are over, I'll actually have a Bachelors degree in psychology. Golly gosh, I'm super shocked and was so happy that I'll be finishing one of my degrees soon that I went and danced around my room for about 15 minutes before knuckling down to continue doing some more work.

Finally my degree is starting to come to an end. This year psychology, next year business. And the year after I don't know where I'll end up but it'll be somewhere super cool. Maybe I'll travel, take a masters degree or open a business or learn how to make coffee!

After this assignment is handed in I have many many plans and I'll have lots of time to blog again (if my daily life remains eventful). I have plans to cook and paint! I better follow through it'll be so much fun! I'm planning to learn how to make apple crumble, mushroom soup and finish painting my 'now panic and freak out' canvas picture and emulate bei badgirl's merbitch art style. Maybe if I have enough time, I might finally start on that my little pony series I've been dying to do, THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS.

I'm so excited for this semester to be over and I can do super fun things and go out or stay in and lounge around without feeling guilty for not doing anything. I am so ready.

But first things first, I gotta finish this report!

MOTIVATION >9000. I wish, but I'm getting there.

the journey continues

So if anyone could remember as far back as about a month ago, I had this thing where I tried to grow into a (relatively) normal adult human being. Well, it didn't quite end up as planned because whatever I start, it starts with a passion and then fades, burns, and explodes into a fantastic display of pretty bright colours and dies.

Since then, I've had a terrible time because of family issues (read: grandma won't shut the fuck up and keeps spreading rumours and saying nasty shit about me). Even though uni and working isn't too stressful right now, I wouldn't mind being super rich because that would help out with my life a lot right now and I'm also going through this materialistic, shallow BUY-EVERYTHING-I-DON'T-NEED phase. I get this phase about twice a year, and it mostly happens around the time where I don't have money or don't have money to spend, or around Christmas time.

So I'm poor, helpless, and half the time I can't even study because my laptop keeps burning out and I can't afford a cooling pad for it.

And that clean eating phase I tried? That burned out too.

It worked for about a week but I was just SO hungry and I craved CARBS. My favourite foods aren't even pasta, pizza or sushi anymore. My favourite food is now anything with CARBS. But not anymore, I don't crave carbs anymore because all I eat are carbs now. Props to those personal trainers and fitness gym junkies who clean eat every single day. That takes a lot of effort and a hell of a lot of self control!

And speaking of which, I haven't been going to the gym as much as I feel I should either. I go maybe twice a week? I guess that's acceptable enough.

For now, I accept defeat. But don't you worry, imma get back up and do things right. (Soon, just not now. Shoosh.)

My next step into (perceived) adulthood

I asked my tutor questions about an assignment today. Small accomplishment for meeee, yeaaaah.

I also made a friend at uni today. She's in almost all the same classes and I'm so so grateful to finally meet someone and relate to them! We can be uni buddies and buddy up and save the universe. And do advanced stats together and try to figure out the recesses of psychopathology and abnormal human behaviour. Woohoo!

It's great, really. Sharing ideas with someone and having someone to talk to you at uni, being alone for the better part of 4 years on two campuses isn't really much fun and if I do ever get to meet someone usually it's a temporary friendship that lasts for about a semester, maybe two if I'm lucky.

But I guess I'm okay with that.

Today I met a new friend and she studies stats and psychopathology with me and I was trying so so hard to pay attention in stats class today because I find that when I space out for ten seconds I tend to miss a lot of information about stuff I need to know (which sometimes is quite worrying). I met her today and it was great fun getting to know her but as soon as we delve into stats and paired comparisons and significance of what goes with what she kept talking to me and it was rude to talk during class and rude to leave her hanging and it was hard to pay attention all at the same time!

I didn't know what to do, I think I might have missed out on a few good points. Nobody said adulthood was ever gonna be easy.

spreading radical self love: 'ur rly pretty, but ur personality doesn't concern me much'

I was just on facebook and I'm having one of those moments. One of those, wow some people are so dumb, kind of moments.

I bet we've all seen the 'like my status for a tbh'. Well, to be honest, suck my dick. When I read into these things I notice that other peoples honest thoughts are really shallow and they really suck. What happened to substance? All I see are things like 'you're really pretty', 'you have a nice personality',  and 'you're nice to me and I like your dp'.

Like whaaaaaaaat?

That's not honesty! That's just plain simple, common courtesy but all up in your face.

Honesty is more like.. hm.. really heartwarming, or just absolutely horrible (if you're blunt about it).

If I ever did one of these things I would rather hear people say stuff like 'I think you're a great person, rainbows shine out of your ass and your kindness drives me crazy' or 'I absolutely totally adore you because you're fucking rad and beautiful and the most wonderful person alive'. Something more uplifting than 'I think you're pretty'.

It's like how some people think calling someone fat is insulting, I totally disagree! Calling someone fat might upset you, sure, but if someone were to call me dishonest, rude, unkind and useless then obviously that would piss me off much much more.

What I think I'm trying to say is, people should be more honest (and eloquent) when it comes to sharing the love, you know? If you've got nothing nice to say, then don't say it all but if it's a fantasmical thing to share then why not? I might not always follow my own advice, but I'm getting there.