fragmentation updates

i'm not going to apologize for not posting any updates because NOBODY READS THIS BLOG ANYWAY, except for you lena

stop reading lena, now shoosh.

anyhowwwww

these past few weeks so far are absolutely crazy because there are assessments flown at our fresh year12 faces every week! once one assessments done, we get another.. woohoo

and whats even more exciting is that our finals are in 4 weeks.
hurrah! im ecstatic!
Not.

i can't wait until these next 6 weeks are over, then it'll be the holidays and then term 4 which will be an easy cruise!
but for now, we gotta struggle and fight the will of suicide! we will make it! somehow!

i have... an english speech to do tomorrow afternoon and i'm sure i'm going to be a nervous wreck (as i always am)
i unecessarily worry about silly trivial things

like today, going driving with my driving instructer, oh gosh
two children and a dog were walking on the footpath along a road with heavy traffic and i'm driving about 30metres in front of the zebra crossing the kids walk up the side of the road (to wait to cross) and i'm sitting behind the wheel thinking

'DONT CROSS CHILDREN, I DONT WANT TO BE PROSECUTED BY YOUR PARENTS, OH NO, PLEASE DONT CROSS, THE DOG! THE DOG! PLEASE DONT CROSS.. WAIT WAIT! OHMYGOD SOMEONES GOING TO LOSE THEIR KIDS'

but as reality clicks, the children didn't cross and i didn't run them over. (thank the lord)

and i almost ran over two ducks and a bird today
literally, i said 'ARGH OH NO A DUCK!' to my driving instructor

i unnecessarily worry about trivial things
or in the least, worry too much about everything

oh well... then there are some things that i dont worry or care about at all in the least
eg. the formal

i'm not very excited at all
its all 'yeah.. money wasting once in a lifetime scheme'
and its not only me who thinks this way!

but yes, transportation and seating arrangements are sorted
and all thats left now is everything else
hurrah.

i hope ashen isn't too disappointed to know that we're formal buddies
i'm certainly not disappointed, i only wish that he won't be and that he'd be less shy and talk more often~
but thats the case with meeting new people right? even though we go to the same school and know the same people, we're still new to each other :3

oh well, what else has been happening lately besides school and formal
ah thats right...NOTHING! because no functional social life is present at this time in year 12 right before the finals

however, i did attend a few university open days (QUT - by myself, and UQ - with jason and nhu) and i plan on taking a trip to the museum to do some hands on research for some resources and references of biology notes for our upcoming biology exam (and hopefully that day, i'll hit cue city and play pool too)

but other than that, i have no functioning social life

but i do have functional issues
like the one with jason
where its all 'I LOVE YOU LEANNE' and i'm all 'i like you too'
but what i do understand is theres no chance at all of us getting back together during this year
its just too much of an important year

that and the fact that my parents will lose their minds if anything like that were to come between our families again, (if you could say, between..)

but then again, theres still tony (who i still have a little somethingsomething for, but its negligible)

oh well
life is all screwed up.

it shouldn't bother me much right? because i'm only trying to survive :3

well its now 11.19pm and i should go sleep, ciao!