failing eyesight

Todayyyyyyy.. I was meant to clean the stove outside like mother said but I didn’t because I was too busy lying in bed doing nothing.

Now she’s making me clean it tomorrow morning otherwise she won’t let me out to the city to buy books for uni and go to a dance rehearsal for the viet school alumni…
Haha my life is lame :)

At the moment I am in bed with Benjie with my laptop on my legs and I’m spacing out with an ice cream stick hanging droopily in the corner of my mouth because I’m spacing out again and I’m typing this without thinking at all

And now the words are blurring
And my visions is getting more and more blurrier
Oh, its cleared up for a second

No wait, its gone again

Okay I’m off
My eyesight is getting worse

Too much staring at screens in lectures and playing games

Byebye
Ciao

sex & adrenaline (holy sheet!)

Fa la la la la la la la
It is now 10.19pm as I’m typing this up and Jason has just left my house approximately one hour ago.. and I miss him a lot :(

Because you see, mr blog, jason came over to visit since my parents are out at a 2VNR event tonight

Tonight has been fraught with danger though… oh the horror!
I wish things were definite, the uncle, the dad coming home… but it was hell as scary..!

You see right before Jason came… the bus didn’t stop at the right stop and stopped a good 20minutes walk away from my house… which wasn’t a good thing (but later we found out that it was)

Because twenty minutes later, my uncle and his girlfriend came over for a quick visit. Thank god he wasn’t stopping by and staying… otherwise Jason would be left at the park in the dark all night :(

But they left soon after and I let Jason in

But then about an hour after that, the alarm to the house suddenly went off and scared the shite out of both of us because dad had come home to pick something up?
But nevertheless, the alarm went off, I mentally peed my pants and strutted outside with two buttons done on my pyjama top (as Jason had already undone all the other buttons…) turned off the alarm, mentally peed my pants again, but dad left soon after.. Thank GOD

And stuff happened
Yah yah yah…

Then he went home… and now I miss him a lot :(

Eventful and frightful day… I’m not sure whats going to happen next time parents go out at night… I wonder if they’re on to me… hmm.. I really hope not

Goodnight all ..
Ciao

seaworld!

LOL
Today I went to seaworld with alex! It was so much fun even though public transport is really boring :(

But we got to seaworld and went on all the rides like the merry go round and the jet rescue, the Bermuda triangle ride and that flume ride and we went on the roller coaster about 8 times which was really cool

I ended up buying a 40” dolphin, a polar bear for mummy, a gift for Jason and alex bought a brown penguin and a whirly gig hat :)
OH we saw penguins too, THEY WERE SMALL AND CUTE

And we saw the imagine dolphin show… and .. hmm okay we didn’t see any seals

But we did see a sleeping dolphin and managed to pat an untrained pelican at seaworld too it was the best thing ever

The last time I went to the gold coast I got to pat pigeons and now pelicans! How awesome!
Fweeee I’m so tired now though… I feel like getting a hot water bottle, a Geronimo stilton book and my laptop and roll in bed with my new dolphin (which I named Valentine) because its cold sitting at my study desk :)

Goodnight

I think I will do chores tomorrow … clean my room and tidy up the house so that mum wont be angry at me for doing nothing all day :)

Aivan invited me out for tomorrow but I’m really truly broke now :(
And I can’t really afford money on my gocard to go anywhere for now so I’ll have to wait until this weekend or the next when I get allowance again… rawr :(

Goodnight everyone! Ciao!

PS. Unfortunately I don’t have any photos because alex took all the photos coz my camera died on the way to inala :( and chyeah…

i like... but i can't afford :(

I currently like this duck and these shoes very much

But I can’t afford anything because I have five dollars in cash in my wallet
(Maybe some spare change if I’m lucky).

The duck is from Russ, he’s a male mallard duck with a green head and he’s really cute and fluffy in person. His tag says ‘Madduck’ as in mallard-duck, isn’t it cute? :)

The shoes are from adidas and their new range collaboration with Vespa and released a range of classic superstar shoes with Vespa branding on the side of the shoes.

They’re both really pretty but I could never afford anything like that. I can barely afford money for transport these days... :(

Also, my fish food for the goldfish is starting to run out and I’m out of Melafix treatment for Kipper... Must buy those in the next two weeks or clean the fish tank constantly.

Studying mental disorders now, not the most interesting thing ever but I’ll be taking pills tonight to sleep because stress keeps me up.

Wish me luck, exam tomorrow at 1.30pm in S block...
Ciao

PS. Eight months today ♥

i am a liar

Am I really a bad friend?
Because apparently everyone thinks I am. And they're making a show of it to let me know.

I am a self centered, selfish, back stabbing person.
I am a liar.


The truth hurts, they say.

i fail at life

i like calvin and hobbes (:
i read their comics when i was a kid
along with garfield... i love lasagne coz of that cat wahaha xD

anyways!
YESTERDAY Jason came to city and we hung out rah rah rah not really super excited to blog today cozi’m tired and poohey coz of exams hehe
I don’t even remember what we did so i can’t even write about it

What did we do...

Oh

Thats right

We went to go see Shrek ..the last one the foreverness one whatever its called haha good movie ;) but it looked like dreamworks was running out of ideas for the shrek movies and it seemed to be about marital issues and the value of life which was nice but hey

LOL at the kid who was all ‘Do the roar.’ at the beginning! Hahaha the kids balls have dropped before the age of 10 hahaha xD

And then we had lunch somewhere... sushi i think yeah .. we had sushi and it was really yummy coz the sashimi they had that day had kingfish! Ahh i like kingfish a lot xD
Then we went karaoke and blah blah blah ;)

Then we went home and Jason went to the dentist to fix his chipped tooth.. i really dontlike the dentist so i thought my stomach was going to fall out just knowing HE was at the dentist haha

I wonder if this is ‘empathy’ like they say in psychology? I don’t know, but it certainly feels like it

AAAAAAAAND today i met up with Jason again! Yay! xD

I had a psych exam at 1.30 and met up with him later after the exam and we had lasagne and potato bake at prego and went to the funhouse where Jason played tekken and MT-ed with his friends for about 6 games~ i wish i could drive as pro as he does, its so like WOAH. But driving a virtual car isn’t gonna really get me anywhere so it doesn’t matter to me haha

Even Jason whoops my ass at technika... i suck >_< i’m so...whats it..rhythmnly uncoordinated..

so i’ll be listening to the music and be like lalalalalaomgsilovethis then the thingy will come on and my brain goes ‘OH SHEET TOUCH THE SCREEN’ and coz my brain is semi incapacitated the neurons don’t travel fast enough so that my reaction is fast enough to hit the note at the right time and considering my nails are pretty long lately i’m even more unco at it and i just fail
I fail even more when i know people are standing around me watching me.

Its like PEER PRESSURE BITCH IF YOU FAIL THIS YOU FAIL AT LIFE. Then i fail the game. Hence, i fail at life.

Then we went to go play pool and i creamed jasons ass again in 3 games muahahaha :)

Feels so good to be good at something xD (even though i’m terrible at it, it makes me have more ‘self concept’ or whatevs... fuck psychology)

And and and and YEAH.
Well this post is going on for ages coz its like a full A4 page now and i was gonna rant on about what i seriously love right now

But since its so long and i’m bloody tired of crapping on about how badly i fail at life (ALL ABOARD THE FAILBOAT, HEADING FOR FAIL. Captain out.) i’ll blog about that tomorrow

I even went to the trouble of print screening it... Bah, i fail at life... Hard.
Goodnight! Ciao!

PS. Damn it my feet are cold

secret gift xD

studying is boring
I GET TO SEE JASON TOMORROW

i'm excited ;)
we're gonna go see Shrek! And and and and and and i can't wait to give him my gift
i'd write about it here, but sometimes jason reads my blog posts.. i dont know why, i'm not very interesting (i'm rather lame) JASON I'M LAME, MY BLOG POSTS ARE BORING WHY DO YOU READ THIS

anyway... its gonna be exciting because i get to give him his giiiiiiiiiiiiiift
hehe

i worked two weeks on it and its my first time doing something like this so it was very new
hopefully it turned out alright
i'm proud of myself just for finishing it .. hehe >_>

gonna log onto deviantart and maybe post something there coz i'm bored and i dont really feel like studying at the moment...

byebye! ciao!

Question!

"Question!"

A phrase i used during tutoring quite a lot, i used to stick up my hand just yell 'Question!' really loud until i got help from the tutor. Dinh caught on and started a 'thing' where we couldn't ask for help without saying 'Question!' and sticking our hand up haha good ol' times with tutor guy, he was the best :)

1. What is your middle name? Legally, Tram Anh.

2. How big is your bed? QUEEEEENsize

3.What are you listening to right now? Kaskade

4. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number? 6177

5. What was the last thing you ate? sausages xD

6. Last person you hugged? Jasonpooh

7. How is the weather right now? I think its cold outside .. :)

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Jasonpooh

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Face... YOUR FACE.

10. Favorite type of Food? Any, i like food :D

11. Do you want children? i don tknow...

12. Hair color? super dark dark dark brown - but not quite black yet

13. Do you wear contacts? glasses... occassionally :(

14. Favorite holiday? Christmas!! During late november and early december i'd hop around the house just saying 'CHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMAS' over and over again, it annoys my mother :)

15. Favorite Season? winter!

16. Have you ever cried over a love lost? guilty >_>

17. Last Movie you watched? 500 days of summer

18. What books are you reading? Let's talk, listen, feel, think act... communication for health professionals... ew

19. Piercings? EARRINGS

20. Favorite Movie? hmm...i have a few...

21. Favorite sports team/club? ROGER FEDERER PWNS NADAL FOREVER BITCHES, i like tennis :)

22. What were you doing before filling this out? i was watching a magician dude walk through steel on TV

25. Favorite animal? dogs and guinea pigs and goldfish and ANY TYPE OF ANIMAL probably apart from the felis domesticus

26. Favorite drink? GREEN TEA LATTE, any type of tea actually *says the notorious tea drinker*

27. Favorite alcohol? Uhh.. double blacks? D:

28. Have you ever loved someone? LOTS AND LOTS

29. Who would you like to see right now? Jasonpoohhh

30. What color are your bedroom walls? dusty white

31. Have you ever fired a gun? no! D:

32. Do you like to travel by plane? CLOUDS! yes :)

33. Right-handed or Left-handed? i was born a lefty, but mother was all 'NO if you write with your left hand you'll die 7 years early so i'm gonna make you do handwriting exercises everyday with your right hand HAHA' so she fixed that and maybe i'm ambidextrous? :S

34. If you could go to any place right now where would you go? to that secret place thats really secret...

35. Are you missing someone? Yes >_<

36. Do you have a tattoo? No D:

37. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? i dont wake up early enough :(

38. Are you hiding something from someone right now? I don't know, am i?

39. Are you 18? i wish D:

40. What is the wallpaper on your cellphone? an area58 photo with jasonface taken wayyy back in april 09

41. Are you afraid of the dark? sometimes D:

42. Favorite hangout? near the tekken machines at the funhouse LOL

43. 3 things you can't live without? jasonpooh, sebastian andddd the interwebz

44. Favorite songs? quite a lot..

45. What are you afraid of? heights ....and SPIDERS

46. Are you a giver or a taker? both?i dunno D:

47. What are your nicknames? i dont have any ..apart from Lenne, Lenny (kudos to nghi) and squishy pooh, big giant stupid pooh, babycakes (kudos to jasonface)

48. What is your dad's middle name? Minh

49. What do you sleep in? PJs, shorts, cheapo guys tshirts on sale at jayjays ;)

50. Stuck on a deserted island, and can only bring one thing? a big ass private jet plane

51. Favorite TV commercial? as of now, the car ad with the truckie and the people camoflaging and the little puppy dog in it. where the truckie stops coz of the dog in the middle of the deserted road, then the chick blows a trumpet and these guys come out and steal all the cars on the trucks cargo and drive away bahhahaaha xD

52. First thing you'll save in a fire? sebastian and benjie!

53. What is your favorite color? that faber castell forest green

54. What are the things you always bring with you? phone, keys, wallet, gocard

55. What did you want to be when you were a kid? an artist or a vet

56. What do you usually do when the alarm turns on? i turn it off and go back to sleep and wake up at midday

57. What color is your bedsheet? white with red hearts and dots on it

58. Who do you want to meet? YOUR MOTHER

59. What do you think about before you go to bed? Jasonpoohhhh

medication & guinea pigs!

So now i’ve been prescribed to two different types of drugs and i have to take 5 pills a day for the next week. And apparently i’m going to experience moody side effects. My psychology exam is in the midst of this medicinal pill popping period so this is gonna be exciting... Yay.

I hope i survive this, not long to go... Must keep it up (like this guinea pig here who's looking at me like 'leanne, dont take too many pills or i'll jump off this bed and commit suicide and i'll die because of you')

What a damn cute adorable little thing he is...

Ciao

PS> i really like guinea pigs. When i was 12, i had 23 guinea pigs

pill popping :(

My sleeping habits have been freaking retarded for the past two weeks. Is there something wrong with me? Stress? Sick?

Didn’t sleep at all last night until around 4am... then woke up at midday.. (at least its still an 8 hour sleep...)

I hate being sick and stressed, it just drags on for aaaaaaaaaaages.

And now i need more panadol, zyrtec, tissues and sleeping pills....

But i’m too effing lazy to go to the doctors for pills...
FML.

Please let the holidays come already, i want to die! :(

Sex & Ducks

So my fingers are about to freeze off and you’ve no idea how many times i have to press backspace to get my words right in this one single sentence. But i need to vent about HOW MUCH I LOVE MALLARD DUCKS (because jasons sick of listening to me blahblah about how much i love dippy ducks and ducks with green heads)

OMFG they’re the most cutest things evarrr!

They’re pretty popular around Australia’s urban areas and are very tolerant of human beings. Which makes me think... that i wanna spend a day bird watching at the lake. With a camera and sandwhiches and a bucket of tea or coffee! Maybe not a bucket but a big big big cup that resembles a bucket.

But yes! The female mallard ducks are roaming around in dusty brown feathers and i see them all the time around the lake where i live but i never see the male mallard drakes.. i’m gonna find them one day i will. But the female mallard ducks all look like the other female dappling ducks...

so i don’t know if mallard ducks live in my area.. but i’ll find out once its the holidays and i’ll take a day off to bird watch for those pretty green headed mallard ducks... because they’re just so pretty!

They have green heads and a brown and white body for the male drakes and the females are just.. brown. I don’t get it..pssh, women. They should be prettier! = =

Its always the males that get attention. Pretty colours so they can procreate with the prettiest female ducks so that their offspring can whoop all the other ducks’ offspring and whoop natural selections ass :)

But then again, the prettiest female duck will look like all the other female ducks..so the male mallard drakes probably just go around sexing every female duck there is so he can spread his gene pool. Clever ducks ;)

PS> i can’t believe the green headed mallard duck at cardiology is out of stock, gonna go crawl in a corner and sob :(

PPS> i wonder how ducks reproduce? It has to be internal coz they lay eggs right? Hmm... DOGGY STYLE D:

Self

Get over it, Leanne.

You’re just a stupid, selfish and materialistic girl.

Don’t ask for anybody else to fulfil your desires because if you want something, you do it yourself.

What have you become? Depending on others? You weren’t like this before.

Find your own feet, Leanne.

plain white rice (without the pikachu & the sesame seeds)

Mkays this really dumb and blablah and idontreallycarewhatyouthink but i was thinking about this other night while reading around blogs like the psyche of mikey and galadarling and all them really cool people who have like billions of readers

And if you really think about it these people have interesting lives to write about. They share their insights, attitudes, feelings, perceptions, the way they love the world, hate the world, everything you know?

Like take galadarling, she’s wonderful. She teaches people to love who they are, teaches people to ‘write love letters to the universe’ and likes to talk about the things that she loves on Thursdays.

Or mikey, who talks about his sudden change of moving from hong kong to the UK and kinda just reflects on whats happening. I mean thats a big change and you’ve got something to share.
Call me shallow and stupid, but i have nothing to write about.

All of a sudden life is pretty normal and nothing drastic ever happens anymore. The most stressful thats happened to me lately is uni and the craploads of work i have to do (of which i am procrastinating right now haha) and going out once in a while but even thats mediocre to talk about sometimes because its always the same things, same place. I mean.. its still lots of fun with friends and stuff, but this blogging thing doesn’t really have a goal, writing is harder than i thought – or writing something interesting at least.

Nothing really ever blows your mind anymore. So you can’t really write about it...
But maybe its coz of age... like when you were little and everything fascinated you... and then you grew up. Someone told me once that feeling of when you’re all grown up and bored with life is kind of like the ‘mid life crisis’ of your teenage years.

All of a sudden you grow up and everyone tells you who have to be and what you have to do and nothing fun never really matters anymore. Is this what makes people seem uninteresting? Or am i just talking too much and becoming uninteresting? Or maybe i’m just plain uninteresting to begin with?

So now i’m crapping on about how uninteresting i am and how much of a normal and boring life i have... so what makes life interesting and full of love and excitement? Maybe its having a passion for something; like photography, drawing, painting, writing – you know, doing stuff you really, truly love.

I know friends who have hobbies and things they really love. Like knitting, painting, drawing, cosplaying, sewing, modelling, studying mechanics... and then there are people who are just damn amazing. They’re intelligent, kind, helpful, caring, like.. hell i don’t even wanna describe all that because it’ll just blow your mind.

Bottom line is – i feel plain. Like white rice.

Not soggy rice. Not rice thats been dipped in soy sauce. No toppings. No cutesy shape. No pikachu. Just plain white rice in a silly little asian bowl

Yeah, my analogy sucks but I FEEL LIKE PLAIN WHITE RICE AND I HATE EATING RICE (unless its in sushi..mmm...sushi....)

I’m off, i feel hungry now
BYYYYE ciao :)

out and abouts and skipping uni (again)

Hello all!

Hehe i decided to write a short quick blog post tonight before i hardcore pull an all nighter to work on this

economics ..although economics needs brain power to work and my brain tends to die at crucial moments during the academic year (eg. During the year, before exams, while doing assignments and of course – during all nighters) but yes i will study it to my utmost until i get tired and pass out in a corner somewhere weeping unconsciously.

On a lighter note (HOORAY!) met up with Jason this morning

I was supposed to get there at 8.30 am but instead i slept in dreaming about Benjie being a real dog and me Jason and jenny went to the beach and a Vietnamese festival and we all lived happily together in a hut :) it was a very nice dream indeed hehe

But i made Jason wait an hour, gahh >_<

But when i got there everything seemed okay... seemed.. ha ha but it really was okay after a while coz he seemed a little bit sleepy :)

We ... oh no.. brain fart, i’ve lost it, i’ve forgotten what we did this morning

Oh thats right! We went straight to mr toys toyworld to buy toys for each other

You see, we had this fun idea (my idea of ‘fun’, that is) that since the happy meal toys are getting more crappier every year we decided to substitute our own toys for each other and do the old switcheroo and trade happy meals and toys :)

And thats what we did! I got Jason a purple rubber duck and a penguin toy where you can chuck it into water and it expands and dries like a real toy :) it totally blew my mind so i hoped it blew his mind too! And Jason bought me a ...wait for it... *drum roll* ...DIPPY DUCK omfgs its the best thing ever XD i’m gonna set it up tomorrow afternoon or something coz mum might ask questions about it and i’ll say ‘it was on sale...you know..EOFYS and all that’

Note: EOFYS – end of financial year sale

And then we went to see a movie, the prince of Persia, it was a pretty good movie. I’ve never played the game before but it was good in between some of the other parts..of..the movie.. you know.

Then we went to eat sushi at alan’s sushi place which was uber! Peking duck for Jason and salmon ikura for me! XD

We then went to the funhouse and ran into haiyen and peter it was the most uber thing ever XD we played basketball and got lots of tickets and did all that silly stuff and then we went to play pool where i totally creamed jasons ass (i made him say that for the price of a kiss, haha!) and then we went to go walk around like poohs and ate dinner at aroma garden which was very nice.

The lasagne wasn’t uber fresh, but still good and the fettucine carbonara wasn’t as nice as bubbles, but still decent albeit much more oily... then we went home and blahhh

I miss him

The stupid pooh

Oh well time to cram some psychology for now, hooray! Brainless reading and writing is just so exhilarating! Then while i all nighter i’m gonna fully analyse the workings of economical international trade and hopefully make a decisive choice on whether to research into labour economics or environmental economics... dear me

Well ciao all! :)
Have a super Thursday tomorrow and a great Friday and an even better weekend!

PS. short my ass, this post was longer than i thought