Thursday, October 27, 2011

Oh no. My heart hurts. Let me die.

I don't like arguments in relationships.

I like playful arguments and arguments about stupid and unusual things. But I doubt anyone (unless you're some form of emotional sadist or a very strong willed politician) really enjoys serious arguments.

Right now, I'm having a very.. let's say.. stupid argument with my 'significant other'.

It's a pretty dumb argument, nothing special. He won't meet deadlines and carry out his responsibilities and I'm an anxious brat who puts too much pressure on him and everything around me.

This is a recurring personality trait of mine, the whole anxiety - pressure thing. I freak out at every chance that something goes wrong. It's like this horrible mental filter that filters out everything positive, amplifies everything negative and helps me find impending doom in practically every situation.

His recurring personality trait (if you read this, correct me if I'm wrong) is the ability to be so ultra relaxed about everything. No pressure, nothing to worry about, just laid back and does things at his own pace. He's the kind of 'put the past behind you' person... Hakuna Matata, you know?

In this way, we are polar opposites. I like to feel secure and safe, rigid in my ways and prefer little change in my lifestyle. I like to be punctual and successful. He is laid back, doesn't seem to worry about much and prefers to go with the flow.

And ironically, I've been described as a 'totally not go with the flow' person.

And because of our polar personality traits, I don't know if it really suits us.
Maybe we are just too different, but maybe that is what makes us a unique couple too, I'm not entirely sure.

Do you think the case of 'opposites attract' are true or false?
In movies and fairytales, no matter the circumstances or the differences, the love always lasts - it lasts 'forever'. Do you think real relationships last in that kind of situation?

..I've yet to find out for myself, and the thought of letting go scares me.

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