ohmygosh, oh happy day, the weather of todays was absolutely wonderful, sunny yet cloudy all at the same time, a lovely sunrise and sunset i've witnessed this since i arose at 6.30 this morning for some stupid reason...
moving on, today i feel unbelieveably stupid, this physics work is confusing as hell and all i can do is stare at my friends green pencil case which we traded. He now uses my pink pencil-shaped pencil case, what a manly guy my friend is >_>
and maybe, just maybe if i keep staring at it long enough something miraculous will happen, maybe i'll understand all this work, cruise through all my exams, live a life without love triangles, fix everyones personality traits that bug me, and everyone will be compassionate and live on rainbows; grow fairy wings and learn to fly
i wish, right?
i mean seriously, staring at a pencil case ain't gonna fix anything in this world, i should get back to my studies, which is pretty gay and what else thats really gay? jersey names, everyones all freaked out and materialized by what they're gonna put on their jerseys for 2009, i wonder why i'm not bothering with this? maybe i'm not materialized enough, maybe i like who i am the way i am now, maybe i'm too sombre? am i?
what would look good on a jersey and make an impression?
for some reason, i honestly dont care, i've screwed up my year 9 jersey, thanks a lot to a friend who is overly exhausting, she talks WAY too much for anyone i know, self centred and completly delusional but at least she tries to understand, but damn as hell is she annoying. being the idiot i am, i listened to her word of advice:
"put 'dreamer' on your jersey, coz your always spacing out in class"
way to go, now i look like a total ditz i'm never wearing that jersey again
is that materialized enough? this materialization reminds me of msn jargon
the same girl constantly tells me 'i imitate people, i dont know why' makes me think she's using that as an excuse to copy other people coz she can't find her own thing, so she copies other people, it pisses me off.
what pisses me off more? she says 'LOL' literally, LOL as in a *lole* sound, why can't you just laugh like a normal person? you complete retard, is our society really overridden with these useless technology terms? makes me wonder, is it really our society? or is it just her attention seeking self? or maybe its me, maybe its my line of thought
who even has a line of thought? well thats just my opinion, am i making excuses? i hope not, excuses are for the pathetic.
apologies for the pessimism today, though the weather was wonderful
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
oh my alah
ohmygosh, i've spent most of today sleeping and trying to study for my religious values exam coming up soon...in two days on monday, its on...hmm..judaism? [i dont even know what i'm studying] but i'm going for it.. and argh did you know there are SO MANY confusing terms upon the subject of 'judaism' and tends to be mistaken for 'israelism'? well that probably just me
'alah' is a term used to define the most overpoweringly powerful god in israelism, since its a monotheist religion [monotheist means you believe in one god]
and oh goodness, is it confusing or what? but i'm making good progress for someone who procrastinates a lot more than the average ._.
but thats what i've been doing lately, nothing muchh, not really looking forward to exams soon, they're next week friday...and i'm so screwed coz i dont think i'll be able to retain as much info on the exam as i'd like
great i'm gonna fail everything.
lovely, normally i'm a good student, most of the time, its just this time exams are just plain gay. nothing more, gay. and is there any relevant way of studying so that you remember more stuff? i know everyone studies and retains info differently, but what is my way of retaining info? how do you figure that out? its pretty confusing this type of stuff... what do they call it?
"self discovery"?
well self discovery is pretty trippy and i dont quite like it, although when you realise something about yourself it makes you feel better, but there are probably loads of people out there who know everything about themselves already and are looking for someone else to share that with, whereas, here i am - not a clue in the world about who i am
pretty sucky if you ask me, i wish i knew more, maybe this whole 'not knowing who i am' thing gives me a disadvantage about retaining info for studying too, so i'm a failure
thats great, awesome, i'm a failure.
*positive thought* it can only get better.
'alah' is a term used to define the most overpoweringly powerful god in israelism, since its a monotheist religion [monotheist means you believe in one god]
and oh goodness, is it confusing or what? but i'm making good progress for someone who procrastinates a lot more than the average ._.
but thats what i've been doing lately, nothing muchh, not really looking forward to exams soon, they're next week friday...and i'm so screwed coz i dont think i'll be able to retain as much info on the exam as i'd like
great i'm gonna fail everything.
lovely, normally i'm a good student, most of the time, its just this time exams are just plain gay. nothing more, gay. and is there any relevant way of studying so that you remember more stuff? i know everyone studies and retains info differently, but what is my way of retaining info? how do you figure that out? its pretty confusing this type of stuff... what do they call it?
"self discovery"?
well self discovery is pretty trippy and i dont quite like it, although when you realise something about yourself it makes you feel better, but there are probably loads of people out there who know everything about themselves already and are looking for someone else to share that with, whereas, here i am - not a clue in the world about who i am
pretty sucky if you ask me, i wish i knew more, maybe this whole 'not knowing who i am' thing gives me a disadvantage about retaining info for studying too, so i'm a failure
thats great, awesome, i'm a failure.
*positive thought* it can only get better.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Amusing Love, Lust and Blogs
oh wow now this is pretty trippy :O *fido's first ever blog*
...kinda too stupid to realise what blogging is, she decided to give it a go
well onto things coz i dont really wanna just sit back and think of what to write otherwise i'll start sounding like a complete dork and probably adding in song lyrics and quotes [how corny =_=]
gah, i'd love to vent about my lately musings of school and love...or lust or like or whatever you call it, how would you know if it was love/lust or whatever it is anyways?
honestly, how do you tell if you really LIKE someone? [i'm using childish terms, i know] is it when you try to make someone jealous and use someone else for it? or when you pick on them and call them homo or gay all the time? or always trying to bite them? and kicking them, punching them, or cuddling a stuffed animal because it reminds you of them?
because its all happened >_> which is pretty gay, i'm pretty immature in the way i act and stuff, i mean really... *gasp*
but being so i'm in denial, i dont like anybody AT ALL, coz thats how i roll YO. boys are stupid anyway, i have a best friend who has a boyfriend, he straightens his sideburns coz they 'curl to the side', exfoliates, tones, rather emotional the way he talks, fixes his girlfriends 'taste in clothes' when needed, and lets her apply chapstick on him.
sometimes i wonder if he's queer... overall he's a nice guy, just more emotional and exfoliative than most
woah, and big question, how do you interpret this: you have a business conference at school where, instead of wearing the normal school uniform you must wear business attire and everyone thinks you look fine even though your freaking out a bit if your underdressing but the guy your friend has been spreading rumours about you being in love with him says "you look funny"
what does that mean? 'you look funny'?
boys are stupid
another example, i have a close friend whos going out with this guy, she leaves to travel a country over the holidays and returns home late about 3 weeks into school. in that space of time, her boyfriends moved away from her, talks to 'amanda' the biggest ho in year 10, barely talks to his girlfriend let alone show affection, and one day gives his girlfriend a death stare? what exactly does that mean?
i dont quite get the whole relationship thing, but if i were ever in one, i'd try to make my decisions carefully, and now i sound like a total stuck up asshole but i'm honestly, not THAT stuck up, more of a ditzy, clumsy, loud, crazy, happy and optimistic person just losing their mind through a blog and expressing a few thoughts thats all :]
blogs are harmless right? for some reason, i'm rather ashamed of having a blog, what if someone finds out ? my reputation will go down the drain, these are personal stories i really dont want to get burned for a few thoughts, i hope this goes down well
until next time..
...kinda too stupid to realise what blogging is, she decided to give it a go
well onto things coz i dont really wanna just sit back and think of what to write otherwise i'll start sounding like a complete dork and probably adding in song lyrics and quotes [how corny =_=]
gah, i'd love to vent about my lately musings of school and love...or lust or like or whatever you call it, how would you know if it was love/lust or whatever it is anyways?
honestly, how do you tell if you really LIKE someone? [i'm using childish terms, i know] is it when you try to make someone jealous and use someone else for it? or when you pick on them and call them homo or gay all the time? or always trying to bite them? and kicking them, punching them, or cuddling a stuffed animal because it reminds you of them?
because its all happened >_> which is pretty gay, i'm pretty immature in the way i act and stuff, i mean really... *gasp*
but being so i'm in denial, i dont like anybody AT ALL, coz thats how i roll YO. boys are stupid anyway, i have a best friend who has a boyfriend, he straightens his sideburns coz they 'curl to the side', exfoliates, tones, rather emotional the way he talks, fixes his girlfriends 'taste in clothes' when needed, and lets her apply chapstick on him.
sometimes i wonder if he's queer... overall he's a nice guy, just more emotional and exfoliative than most
woah, and big question, how do you interpret this: you have a business conference at school where, instead of wearing the normal school uniform you must wear business attire and everyone thinks you look fine even though your freaking out a bit if your underdressing but the guy your friend has been spreading rumours about you being in love with him says "you look funny"
what does that mean? 'you look funny'?
boys are stupid
another example, i have a close friend whos going out with this guy, she leaves to travel a country over the holidays and returns home late about 3 weeks into school. in that space of time, her boyfriends moved away from her, talks to 'amanda' the biggest ho in year 10, barely talks to his girlfriend let alone show affection, and one day gives his girlfriend a death stare? what exactly does that mean?
i dont quite get the whole relationship thing, but if i were ever in one, i'd try to make my decisions carefully, and now i sound like a total stuck up asshole but i'm honestly, not THAT stuck up, more of a ditzy, clumsy, loud, crazy, happy and optimistic person just losing their mind through a blog and expressing a few thoughts thats all :]
blogs are harmless right? for some reason, i'm rather ashamed of having a blog, what if someone finds out ? my reputation will go down the drain, these are personal stories i really dont want to get burned for a few thoughts, i hope this goes down well
until next time..
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