my dream

school dance 09

(27 march)

CODAT

(25 march)

good morning! omg guess what? exams and stuff are over! except for english and physics prac, but no matter! hooray ! exciting stuff! one more week of school and term one will be officially over! hooray! looking forward to the holidays and a break in between these crazy stress releases during school

but onto other things non-school related! my dream

ohmygosh, remmeber emile? yeah well i remember him, i had a dream about him *big shocked face*

wanna hear it? well it doens't matter, i'm telling anyway!

well, i woke up in this bed, in this house, and it looked familiar, it wasn't my room, but it looked familiar, and it was a massive house!

and turns out, there were a few asian parents and aunts/uncles, family relatives etc downstairs in a ballroom! having a party! so i figured it was a family party, but someone had mentioned 'ice festival' and i as i heard this.. i walked around looking around to find where i was!

righteo, and i stumbled back to the room, and noticed to the window to the room was absolute huge, so i looked out of it and guess what?

an ice festival in the very backyard of the house

the yard was huge, the grass lush and green with little formed dew drops, a blow up pool the size of a ...well -normal- sized pool with water and platforms and ice statues hung everywhere, complete with vendors, an ice castle that was walkthrough-able, games, food, anything a festival would have really, and the absolutely beautiful mist that hung over the entire festival, all in the backyard!

it was amazing

but for some reason, i figured... emile was around somewhere! for some reason, i knew he was there, just not..there there! so i decided to go look for him, and stumbled across two little children i asked them where he was and if they'd seen him andthey replied 'no, but you should go find him then!' and smiled cheerfully and ran away to play

so i went looking for him, in this huge house, checking every room, opening doors, turning door knobs, turning on lights looking for him

and in the end, i couldn't find him and the family relatives left to attend the ice festival, and i felt too down to go with them so i stayed back in the room i woke up in and played final fantasy on PS2

rahter strange a dream do you think?

lets ask dreammoods!

dreammoods

well...

search: To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life. You may be searching for love, spiritual enlightenment, peace or even a solution to a problem.

ice : To see ice in your dream, suggests that you are lacking a flow of ideas and thoughts. You are not seeing in progress in your life. Alternatively, you may be feeling emotionally paralyzed or rigid. You need to let your feelings be known.

bedroom: To dream that you are in the bedroom, signifies aspects of your self that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature and intimate relations.

festival : To dream that you are at festival, symbolizes happiness, celebration and joviality. You are in a good place in your life right now.

video game: To dream that you are playing a video game, represents your ability to manipulate others into doing what you want them to do. Alternatively, it suggests that you are trying to escape and not confront the stress and problems in your real life. Consider the type of video game for additional insights.

so...apparently, i'm looking for love, but lacking thoughts and progress in life and must let my love be known. and when i do let this 'love' be known, then i will have/not have intimate relations and enjoy happiness and celebration and i can manipulate people and try to avoid stress

phew, thats a lot to take in...

so maybe i like him, so maybe i should tell him? bah, i dont know, who cares =_=

i want to watch full house :]

PS. codat was fun, nothing interesting happened besides people stealing my shoe and emile offering to drive me home and this girl being one who thinks she's very close and intimate with other people but she's not coz she's a homo :]

and the dance was really boring, nobody rocked up but i had fun in the last 3 songs :]

but no big deal, the biggest deal was that dream, it was so vivid and weird... it was so real..

anyway! gonna go watch my full house now, byyye!

imagery

kudos to tony :]

post for todayyy!

guess what all? todays blog shall be an upbringing of my innermost crazy psychopath omg-wtf thoughts on imagery!

imagery..hmm where to start, well imagery is kinda a way of looking at things from different perspectives kinda... its more of an art term of 'how the audience perceives' a source or something, but the way i look at it, its more a persons' discourse than anything else

some people think its one way, some people another... you know, kinda like rumours except with a personal opinion attached

speaking of personal opinions! wanna hear mine?

well my personal opinion of today is that

orange juice and honey tastes really good together

tastes, sweet, smooth, a rich texture kinda taste and good for the throat

especially when you like to yell and laugh lots and spend a lot of all nighters studying your brains out and can't stop eating chocolate [ as in, chocolate, as in, breaking out ]

so its nice to have something healthy to drink/eat :]

is panadol healthy? i take panadol when i get headaches, and i get headaches a lot, is panadol bad?

oh noes

oh well

:]

well..as for daily musings of todayy and my waffling on and not-staying-on-the-topic-of-'imagery'-because-i've-fogotten-what-to-write-about

well i dont really know what i'm thinking about today really, my brains crammed with physics, maths, legal studies and full house

omg its an addiction - i love full house

its so ...fun! i dont even like korean dramas that much, but i love full house!

aja aja fighting!

i think i might go study legal for another 5minutes or so and hopefully something will sink in and then go watch the 6th episode of full house!

wish me luck!

full house!

suju plus extra

Kim Kibum!

hello! as of late, and also as of since-the-release-of-super-juniors-new-album, our [ lena & mine ] love for super junior has been rekindled!
lena ♥ sungmin
but for me?
♥ kibum all the way... *drool*
he's so adorable.... >_<
and to make up for the lack of posts lately, due to uncertainty of fail & passing in classes and hardkore trying to study, a photostream!
all dedicated to super junior, because they're rad

kibum

hee chul & kibum

donghae & kibum

donghae

siwon

siwon again.. x]

super junior groupie!

*drools over adorableness*

ahh..and today, this week, well... ehh.. not talking to people coz they're homo, and i dont want to talk to them , and emile... things are looking up maybe?

i dont know, maybe i'm being too hopeful, maybe its always been that way, so no worries

we'll see how things turn out one day? maybe.. even if things dont turn out, hopefully we'll be friends forever ♥

corny, but its better than losing someone altogether ):

but nonetheless, he never fails to cheer me up when i need it, even though he doens't realise :]

such willpower and strength, and 'lovability'

maybe Kibum has the same traits as Emile does?

being realistic, i'm prolly never gonna meet kibum, but with emile, i'd want to know him for life [ and also all my other close friends! ]

i'm glad to have the friends i have now :]

love love love!

happy blog time! :]

a list of all the things i love!
[ something new and different this time round! ]
hmm...a list of a lot of things i love... lets start, shall we?

• my chapstick!
• friends
• family
• my motherrr
• pikachu
• instant noodles
• maths
• drawing, sketching, cartooning around
• guinea pigs & border collies
• frankensteins cat [the cartoon!]
• Kim Kibum & Orlando Bloom
• video games
• expressive tshirts [threadless.com]
• mychonnys youtube posts
• making faces ;]
• looking at the sky
• day dreaming & spacing out
• reading
• singing
• learning to play fur elise off by heart on the keyboard [even though i can't do it]
• laughing, really loudly
• having loads of fun
• the thumb game in maths lessons
• saying 'rahhr' when i want to
• saying 'arhh' because i can
• my happy go lucky mood
• panadol, for my super ultra headaches
• green tea & ice cream

and these are some of my most lovabled loved thingy things :]

i'd upload a cutesyfuls picture for today [and maybe a few more to make up for the loss of blogness in the past week due to hardkore studying coz exam blocks are tomorrow! ..but, the popup picture uploader thing isn't working, so i'll upload a whole stream of images in the next few days & whatnot]

maybe... sheesh, who even reads this? bahahhah

well its... 11.01pm, shall continue maths revision and head to bed! quite tired...goodnight all!

emile & SuJu

image: leanne & lenabutt!

good morning everyone! :]

how is our weekend today?

mine is going...well alright, sleepy-ish, but good, just finished my biology! my last piece of assessment before exam blocks! :D so hopefully i'll be able to concentrate on studying all that other stuff for my exams! :]

but ...on a more emotional not-so-serious-holy-cow kind of side of things..

JUST when i thought i was getting over emile *codename*

something mindblowingly just happens so that i can't get on with my own life =_=

tch, typical!

well yeshh... i dont know what it is, but if you could draw a graph showing how much i like/dislike him at times, the graph would go crazy!

NO KIDDING.

D:

bah, i want to get over this, but its taking ages! ..better not think about it then! :]

oh! music! SUJU! SUPER JUNIOR! has recently just released a new song! its called Sorry Sorry! and its the most catchiest korean song EVER... [references to lenabutt]

image for the day! 13 March 2009

this is tony

he's awesome :]

but anyhow, today..hmmm..lets see

dinh got his head shaved for shave for a cure! dinh is now BALD! its so weird and COOL

hehhe

*support and donate to the leukemia foundation & shave for a cure people!*

other than that... handed in 2 out of 3 assignments, watched people getting their heads shaved, went to the library, went to the village and drank coffee & such

quite an average day

but a good day none the less :]

yes it was ... and right now..it is.. 12.23AM

which is REALLY LATE...or early? since its am?

i dont know, but i shoud get to bed soon, after i read thsi chapter though, a good book it is too

"the curious incident of the dog in the night time" by Mark Haddon

poor Austic kid Christopher doesn't understand human emotions because he suffers from Aspergers and he's trying to find out who killed the dog named Wellington... a dynamic and thoughtful story, you should read it sometime :]

but fornow, its time to sleep, goodnight all~

hello! ohmygosh! weirdest of the weird things happened yesterday afternoon... i was talking to my mother, as usual just about the normal stuff that happens around school...oh yeah this teacher gave me detention blah blah blah! and for some reason, we moved onto the topic of 'boys'

strange.. she told me that she never liked anyone at this age, people liked her, and she really was gorgeous at this age, so lots of people wanted her, but she never wanted anyone else!

told me stories of the old days, which guys did what to try and confess to her, the funny stories and the sad all the same, and i asked her about herself and dad

now heres the funny thing, my mother absolutely hated my dad! said he was total prick! a cocky, incessant prick really! apparently he likes to just simply piss her off, because that was his personality, a jokey, no-serious, kind of guy [like the one time, my mother said, he ran his bicycle over her dog! i would think he was a prick too!]

but then one day, they had an actual conversation, and my mother thought at the time, 'this is a nice guy, he acts like an idiot but he's intellectual!'

and as that started they got to know each other and by the time she was 18, my dad 21 or so, they hooked up and have ever since been together :]

its amazing, its so cliche, this 'love hate' relationship, and i thought it only happened in movies! i've only heard of that story yesterday afternoon! its amazing what people dont tell you! especially your mother sometimes

but then she asked me if i liked anyone, i told maybe, i wasn't sure, she told me i liked my ex boyfriend a lot! and i said 'yeahh, he was alright, but we dont talk anymore, its over' and so she got asking if i liked this guy [umm we need a codename.. EMILE, yes that is what his codename will be from now on :] ]

so heres how the conversation sort of went:

well she said 'do you like anyone? right now? be honest!'

'well, i dunno..'

'you like emile dont you? i'm sure of it'

'yeahh..probably..yes i do'

'i knew it.. never like someone first, always let them like you and then make a choice if you want to be with them'

'yeah i know, i dont want to like him though! it just happened because we were friends'

'do you think he likes you too?'

'*thinks*...nahh, i doubt it, i want to get over him anyway'

'why?'

'because its a hassle, a bother to like someone or even be in love at this time and age, it feels as if we're still too young for these things, and this year is important - something like that would only be a distraction! and its not like any relationships at this point will stay together anyway, its just how teenagers are'

and my mother agreed

and it was left at that, she now knows, and im trying to get over emile, who was (of course) never supposed to happen anyway

but thats how it went... maths tutorials today, gosh, i couldn't stop staring at him... its so weird, we never talk anymore, its like he ignores me, even if he doesn't like me back thats okay, it doens't matter but it'd be nice if he could still talk to me like we were friends!

well... i guess, he acknowledges me... and my best friend, he'll never talk to me the way he wants to talk to her.. but i guess it all isn't that bad

he knows i'm alive, its probably as good as it gets now

better get over it, i dont want to be depressed!

wish me luck~

and an image for today...

Swimming Carnival '09!

QUICK! a run down of today!

YAY!
well nothing really that interesting happened today, only the fact that my friend tiffany got over that guy who caused her shit for months now! and my art draft is half done! but besides from that! maths tutorials! ahahah how fun!
kind of like a mini study group, a few friends and mumbai he's so coooooool! hahahah so funny, just joking around with our crazy maths...hehehe
'standing population' ..eh, what was mr ford the head of mathetmatics department thinking?! gosh, exponential functions, so crazy!

but yesh!
hahaha my grandparents and aunt and her daughters came over today, fiona the poor bubba...caught a fever the poor thing and started burning up and crying, so then i went downstairs to eat dinner and she's crying .. and i fed her rice and soup...and she shut up :]
and then she cried again, so i fed her some more, then i got tired and went outside for a while

mmm...so absolutely knackered! only so much more on art and maths..then i'm done, then biology, then exam block ..something i'm sort of looking forward to!
hahaah but yesh... oh i'd like to upload a picture for today!

lets see how this works...

HOORAY! ..our last city trip before christmas, one of the coolest city trips ever, it was so fun
oh and the arm..where it says "WTF"..thats ..guppy? goppi? i'm not sure, but he's cool :D so many fun times at pool that day.. ahh.. anyhow, i have to go!
see you soon! :]

jack got me thinking..

HELLO! :]



i was reading my friend jack's blog today! well just then actually and he got me thinking with his post from yesterday 'hannah got me thinking' so i decided to post one with 'jack got me thinking' hehehe



well jacks post was a pretty much low down on the formal! he's going to the formal with a past graduate from FLC! heeheh



makes me think, who am i gonna go with? gah, psycho!

because i'd have no idea, have you ever realised how much a pain the ass a formal is? lets see...

• dress


• shoes


• hair


• makeup


• mani/pedi


• date


• transport


• skin regime

i'm not even a flashy, girly person! [oh come on, i dont like shopping, especially SHOE shopping] but theres so much to think about! except for the hair... mm formal hair.. i've love some sort of hairstyle based on taylor swift, have you seen her hair? its absolutely gorgeous!

she's such a hottie! x] ngaww..i wish i looked like her, but no i'm asian and i've got freckles and not even that hardkore dark brown eyes, just plain hazel-ish brown... not very asian at all

i'm such an outcast *boohoo* oh well, i'm happy the way i am.. back to the subject! i..dont ... know! formal formal formal..hmm in september, still ages away but it takes ages for these things to be organised etc... i wonder who i'm gonna go with, i dont want to worry about it but i've got no one *bah* but i've got a lot of substitutes ;]

we'll see how things go, we've still got months to go before anything gets decided! ehhe.. but for now, i have dinner to attend to! oh and that biology EEI i surely must at least start with 200 words tonight!

wish me luck, see you soon! :]

**edit! i just realised this blogskin doesnt show the blogs' title...ahahah.. well just so you know, the blogs title is jack got me thinking... and remind me to not add a blog title from now on, since i'm too lazy too! oops, mums telling me to go to dinner, byeee!

smile!

mkays, change of pace people! here we go!

from now on, i will try my hardest to vow that NO MATTER WHAT happens! i will always smile and be happy blah blah blah corny crap here
but! i will always be determined and finish what i start and do what i can to get things done and through! all throughout, i will always smile and be strong
that is my resolution :D

throughout this horrible year 12 this year, i will make it!

crushed

oh this is awful!

physics prac... 5 and a half out of TEN.

not good at ALL
and whats worse, my QCS practice! i so failllllllled... >_< the marker fully dissed my written taskk! was it THAT bad?!?! okay it was, but she could have been nicer, i want to cry...

oh this is so hard right now...!
everything is so messed up, i wish i could study harder right now, i REALLY need to focus but i can't DO ANYTHING
my brain just wont work! ...so many things to do... so tired... so hard.. but i know i'm going to get through all this now...

but...arghhh... i wish i were at school right now.. school makes things seem better because you dont have to worry about other subjects and assignments in a class except for the assessment in that class ONLY.

gahhhhhh.. i cna't do this... and.. and .. what am i? BOY CRAZY? theres something wrong with me! ...stupid guys, guys are stupid!
i really need to focus now..i shouldn't even be blogging..thisi s gay.

gonna shower and start my art assessment which was well...the draft was due TODAY.

well theres no use worrying if i'm not doing anything about it!...here goes nothing, wish me luck~

fever?

i think..i have a fever! oh noooooooo, not really, just slightly sick of a few things right now, *slightly pessimistic*
i have word block! i can't write my physics discussion! i'm just...so..STUCK!
oh help me
and whats worse? gah..i'm not sure, i'm so over *ahem* and *ahemhemhem* SO ITS ALL OKAY
but now that i've got over them.. i think.. this guy...is..ARGH..

one thing after another isn't it?
bah how gay.
if anything, i have BOY FEVER
yeah my lame joke, laugh if you must >_>
but i do, and certainly must get my butt off msn and continue this physics prac!
goodbye for noooowww..and tackle these hardkore assessment pieces
year 12 is treating me like poo >_<