hello! ohmygosh! weirdest of the weird things happened yesterday afternoon... i was talking to my mother, as usual just about the normal stuff that happens around school...oh yeah this teacher gave me detention blah blah blah! and for some reason, we moved onto the topic of 'boys'

strange.. she told me that she never liked anyone at this age, people liked her, and she really was gorgeous at this age, so lots of people wanted her, but she never wanted anyone else!

told me stories of the old days, which guys did what to try and confess to her, the funny stories and the sad all the same, and i asked her about herself and dad

now heres the funny thing, my mother absolutely hated my dad! said he was total prick! a cocky, incessant prick really! apparently he likes to just simply piss her off, because that was his personality, a jokey, no-serious, kind of guy [like the one time, my mother said, he ran his bicycle over her dog! i would think he was a prick too!]

but then one day, they had an actual conversation, and my mother thought at the time, 'this is a nice guy, he acts like an idiot but he's intellectual!'

and as that started they got to know each other and by the time she was 18, my dad 21 or so, they hooked up and have ever since been together :]

its amazing, its so cliche, this 'love hate' relationship, and i thought it only happened in movies! i've only heard of that story yesterday afternoon! its amazing what people dont tell you! especially your mother sometimes

but then she asked me if i liked anyone, i told maybe, i wasn't sure, she told me i liked my ex boyfriend a lot! and i said 'yeahh, he was alright, but we dont talk anymore, its over' and so she got asking if i liked this guy [umm we need a codename.. EMILE, yes that is what his codename will be from now on :] ]

so heres how the conversation sort of went:

well she said 'do you like anyone? right now? be honest!'

'well, i dunno..'

'you like emile dont you? i'm sure of it'

'yeahh..probably..yes i do'

'i knew it.. never like someone first, always let them like you and then make a choice if you want to be with them'

'yeah i know, i dont want to like him though! it just happened because we were friends'

'do you think he likes you too?'

'*thinks*...nahh, i doubt it, i want to get over him anyway'

'why?'

'because its a hassle, a bother to like someone or even be in love at this time and age, it feels as if we're still too young for these things, and this year is important - something like that would only be a distraction! and its not like any relationships at this point will stay together anyway, its just how teenagers are'

and my mother agreed

and it was left at that, she now knows, and im trying to get over emile, who was (of course) never supposed to happen anyway

but thats how it went... maths tutorials today, gosh, i couldn't stop staring at him... its so weird, we never talk anymore, its like he ignores me, even if he doesn't like me back thats okay, it doens't matter but it'd be nice if he could still talk to me like we were friends!

well... i guess, he acknowledges me... and my best friend, he'll never talk to me the way he wants to talk to her.. but i guess it all isn't that bad

he knows i'm alive, its probably as good as it gets now

better get over it, i dont want to be depressed!

wish me luck~

and an image for today...

Swimming Carnival '09!