puzzlement

i am so confused!

but i do believe in, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

and there seems to be some self conflict happening here...

last night, i'd learned that jason smoked...only from time to time and he's quitting. but thats not our issue right now.

the issue is..he's being really withdrawn towards me lately, and i have no idea why

was it something i said? or something i did?

i really dont know.. but worse comes to worse, he'll break up with me.

*he just called* so maybe he's not as withdrawn as i said

but talk about timing. he seems alright now.

well right now, things are all blurry. and i'm gonna let all this blurriness clear up and see where things head. if we stay together, then thats ayy okay~ but if not, well..its probably for the best.

but we'll wait until things become clear first... but right now i want a croissant, some hot milk and a good movie. but i can't do that because i have to study..or do something useful. i haven't done anything productive this weekend, i should really start...or maybe not.

i'm just too lazy.. mm croissant..

gonna go get one, ciao!