dear blog of goodness and stress relief and ramblings,
welcome to the world of examination! and my goodness....
events? plenty.
examinations start at the end of this week, better get studying why am i blogging anyway?
year 12 friends are leaving *tear*
a whole new dimension of studying, assessments and exams
and another whole new dimension of organising plans and parties
ohmygoshh...doesn't sound like much but its totally crazy right now, everyday is stressful and oh so painful
epic fail on my exams, but the year 12s are leaving, its really sad i wish they wouldn't leave, the year has been so much fun and we've had so many memories together, i only wish we could make more. what would i do without them? and i dont think i'm ready to be a senior anyway..
gah i wish i'd be able to ramble on some more about my depressing life at the moment, but since i have some legal to write and some hardout english essay drafts to write and that physics study, and biology memorisation, and legal case studies, and maths derivatives and art journals that need to be updated and evaluated
adios, for my stack of books and study are calling
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
camp outs, bogans most importantly: drop bears
oh leadership camp, something i've been looking forward to all year. an exhilarating experience i might say, from all the jokes and laughter to the troubles of waterproofing packs and bags, and repacking and rewaterproofing everything so that you dont happen to capsize in canoes, the team work, the friendships, the progress of an individual and relationships with others. only we grow closer as we work together right?
being the 'i want to be challenged and go for it' type, i chose a 2 night out camp out
i regretted it at first, but during the whole trip, nothing was regretted
getting to base camp, taking a 2.5 hour bus trip and falling asleep, every hour having a certain someone slap you gently and then yell in your ear REALLY wakes someone up; not much sleep was achieved during that bus ride
once we got there, we had morning tea and packed and waterproofed our bags all while the camp leaders were trying to mentally prepare us for the 8km canoe to our first camp site
approximately 3 hours of canoeing in circles and much improvement later, it was decided as groups 3 and 4 were staying together while camping out! once settled and landed our canoes, tents were set up, dinner was being prepared, with everyone craving showers and having no luck! after dinner, the groups just bummed around; together with a few guy friends and my camping buddy we shared a few jokes around until both camp leaders proposed a mini bonfire and marshmallows
and i think this was where it all started; the marshmallows, setting up the bonfire, having never tried toasted marshmallows before which are very delectable! deciding to share my third marshmallow with my friend, whom never has tried toasted marshmallows either, fed him my little burnt marshmallow on a stick, does such a simple act cause your heart to beat so fast? it shouldn't should it? but it did.
after much hanging around and sitting at the base of a tree; a witty comment about bogans and torches arised: "every three seconds you gotta turn on your torch and check for bogans"
hahahaha hilarious that was!
going to bed fairly late that night, woke up early next morning, prepared breakfast etc the two groups split up. one took the canoe, hike and canoe, the other went canoeing and straight hiking
our group canoed, then hiked and canoed some more. canoeing in total approximately 3 - 5kms and hiking 10kms to fig tree point was tiring as hell. the other group suffered more though, lucky them *sarcasm*
eventually reaching the second camp point, we set up for dinner etc, afterwards sitting on a park bench in the middle of nowhere: "pass me my LED torch, i'm gonna check for drop bears" being curious, i asked "what are drop bears?"
he explained "drop bears are bears that climb into the trees then they fall on their prey and paralyse them and eat them"
he seemed pretty serious, but by the time i got into my sleeping bag that night i realised "wait a second, we dont have bears in australia"
hahahahahahah, funny stuff that was , the next morning we left for the original base camp meeting up with him again i asked "hey did you take it seriously about te drop bears thing?"
turns out he took it seriously, when he realised there weren't any bears in australia he looked slightly embarrassed and humiliated, ahhahhaha good memories though
that night after arriving was our 'semi formal' dinner of pasta and chocolate cake and cream dessert, after much small portions of food, leadership and team work activities and a 15minute rave dance we all headed back to either bed or supper
through much leadership activities i developed a love for piggybacks, walking to supper and dinner that night i made most people i know piggy back me, turns out the guy i fancy has a '16 year old body, but a 60 year old back' hahahhahah oh that loser. hahaah
piggybacks are way fun though, but the next morning we left camp, at midday we all boarded the bus. situated with my friend, think of it, your VERY sleepy and the two people behind you [including the guy i liked] both had pillows, switching bus buddies i got shoved with him.
he woulddn't share his pillow, so i used my jumper and tried to sleep, it didn't quite work but somehow falling asleep on his shoulder and him falling asleep on me with a pillow between us...
not quite sure how it all happened, but thats what happened, so now back from camp, tired and sore, not mentally prepared for what i want within myself
lets make a small list of what i learnt:
1. always choose to sleep in the same tent with someone who doens't snore
2. make sure the supervising teacher doens't snore
3. check for bogans
4. bears dont live in australia
5. the bare necessities only last you 3 days and 2 nights
6. cream cheese and premium crackers taste good together
7. and so does fresh toast dipped in hot chocolate
8. i now have an acquired taste for honey
9. piggybacks are loads of fun
10. wild kangaroos are bigger than they seem
11. bus rides are very sleepy
12. but are much more comfortable when your sleeping on someones shoulder
13. packing up tents is lots harder than putting up one
14. packing up tents when its raining and windy is even harder
15. KFC tastes great after camp
16. suppressing urges to cuddle people is a lot harder than it looks
17. suppressing your heart to misbehave its normal beating pattern is even harder
18. i am an independant individual
19. i am in complete denial about my feelings towards some people
20. i missed my teddybear, sebastian, a lot during the trip
21. missing others while they're sleeping in a tent 50metres away is quite easy to achieve also
well thats 21 things i've learnt so far along with a lot of other things but they're the things that stand out the most, i enjoyed the camp very much and i wont forget it
congrats to all those who did their best and enjoyed the camp also, i now understand the concept of not giving up and the many advantages and disadvantages of teamwork and individual work
if anything, changes will happen soon, i only hope they're good changes, with optimism everything will be seen as a good change!
until then~
PS. i have finally admitted i MAY have a certain thing for a certains someone * ^^ *
being the 'i want to be challenged and go for it' type, i chose a 2 night out camp out
i regretted it at first, but during the whole trip, nothing was regretted
getting to base camp, taking a 2.5 hour bus trip and falling asleep, every hour having a certain someone slap you gently and then yell in your ear REALLY wakes someone up; not much sleep was achieved during that bus ride
once we got there, we had morning tea and packed and waterproofed our bags all while the camp leaders were trying to mentally prepare us for the 8km canoe to our first camp site
approximately 3 hours of canoeing in circles and much improvement later, it was decided as groups 3 and 4 were staying together while camping out! once settled and landed our canoes, tents were set up, dinner was being prepared, with everyone craving showers and having no luck! after dinner, the groups just bummed around; together with a few guy friends and my camping buddy we shared a few jokes around until both camp leaders proposed a mini bonfire and marshmallows
and i think this was where it all started; the marshmallows, setting up the bonfire, having never tried toasted marshmallows before which are very delectable! deciding to share my third marshmallow with my friend, whom never has tried toasted marshmallows either, fed him my little burnt marshmallow on a stick, does such a simple act cause your heart to beat so fast? it shouldn't should it? but it did.
after much hanging around and sitting at the base of a tree; a witty comment about bogans and torches arised: "every three seconds you gotta turn on your torch and check for bogans"
hahahaha hilarious that was!
going to bed fairly late that night, woke up early next morning, prepared breakfast etc the two groups split up. one took the canoe, hike and canoe, the other went canoeing and straight hiking
our group canoed, then hiked and canoed some more. canoeing in total approximately 3 - 5kms and hiking 10kms to fig tree point was tiring as hell. the other group suffered more though, lucky them *sarcasm*
eventually reaching the second camp point, we set up for dinner etc, afterwards sitting on a park bench in the middle of nowhere: "pass me my LED torch, i'm gonna check for drop bears" being curious, i asked "what are drop bears?"
he explained "drop bears are bears that climb into the trees then they fall on their prey and paralyse them and eat them"
he seemed pretty serious, but by the time i got into my sleeping bag that night i realised "wait a second, we dont have bears in australia"
hahahahahahah, funny stuff that was , the next morning we left for the original base camp meeting up with him again i asked "hey did you take it seriously about te drop bears thing?"
turns out he took it seriously, when he realised there weren't any bears in australia he looked slightly embarrassed and humiliated, ahhahhaha good memories though
that night after arriving was our 'semi formal' dinner of pasta and chocolate cake and cream dessert, after much small portions of food, leadership and team work activities and a 15minute rave dance we all headed back to either bed or supper
through much leadership activities i developed a love for piggybacks, walking to supper and dinner that night i made most people i know piggy back me, turns out the guy i fancy has a '16 year old body, but a 60 year old back' hahahhahah oh that loser. hahaah
piggybacks are way fun though, but the next morning we left camp, at midday we all boarded the bus. situated with my friend, think of it, your VERY sleepy and the two people behind you [including the guy i liked] both had pillows, switching bus buddies i got shoved with him.
he woulddn't share his pillow, so i used my jumper and tried to sleep, it didn't quite work but somehow falling asleep on his shoulder and him falling asleep on me with a pillow between us...
not quite sure how it all happened, but thats what happened, so now back from camp, tired and sore, not mentally prepared for what i want within myself
lets make a small list of what i learnt:
1. always choose to sleep in the same tent with someone who doens't snore
2. make sure the supervising teacher doens't snore
3. check for bogans
4. bears dont live in australia
5. the bare necessities only last you 3 days and 2 nights
6. cream cheese and premium crackers taste good together
7. and so does fresh toast dipped in hot chocolate
8. i now have an acquired taste for honey
9. piggybacks are loads of fun
10. wild kangaroos are bigger than they seem
11. bus rides are very sleepy
12. but are much more comfortable when your sleeping on someones shoulder
13. packing up tents is lots harder than putting up one
14. packing up tents when its raining and windy is even harder
15. KFC tastes great after camp
16. suppressing urges to cuddle people is a lot harder than it looks
17. suppressing your heart to misbehave its normal beating pattern is even harder
18. i am an independant individual
19. i am in complete denial about my feelings towards some people
20. i missed my teddybear, sebastian, a lot during the trip
21. missing others while they're sleeping in a tent 50metres away is quite easy to achieve also
well thats 21 things i've learnt so far along with a lot of other things but they're the things that stand out the most, i enjoyed the camp very much and i wont forget it
congrats to all those who did their best and enjoyed the camp also, i now understand the concept of not giving up and the many advantages and disadvantages of teamwork and individual work
if anything, changes will happen soon, i only hope they're good changes, with optimism everything will be seen as a good change!
until then~
PS. i have finally admitted i MAY have a certain thing for a certains someone * ^^ *
Monday, September 29, 2008
curious as to why
ohmyBARF.
been a while since my last blog, and eruption of pissed-ness. update~ one week into the school holidays! tired, city? awesome.
curious as to why even your the only chick with 5 other guys at the city, but it was awesome.
well, just going out was awesome, but the guys?
1. *drool*, the totally awesome guy in a totally awesome polo shirt and whoops ass at pool [ more *drool* ]
2. average funny nice guy
3. dramatic fun guy
4. lame annoying guy, nice at heart
5. the guy i'm meant to totally loathe, but he ends up shouting a round of pool
but all in all, it was loads of fun~
jaywalking
sprinting to the train
playing lazy tiggy
playing pool
walking far and wide for no reason
reminiscence of barney the purple dinosaur
adding numbers with barney the dinosaur...
and making bets on who sinks more pool balls
ahh yeah...good times, if only ...
hahaha *drool* at the guy in the polo shirt
anyways~ i'm off~
byebyes
been a while since my last blog, and eruption of pissed-ness. update~ one week into the school holidays! tired, city? awesome.
curious as to why even your the only chick with 5 other guys at the city, but it was awesome.
well, just going out was awesome, but the guys?
1. *drool*, the totally awesome guy in a totally awesome polo shirt and whoops ass at pool [ more *drool* ]
2. average funny nice guy
3. dramatic fun guy
4. lame annoying guy, nice at heart
5. the guy i'm meant to totally loathe, but he ends up shouting a round of pool
but all in all, it was loads of fun~
jaywalking
sprinting to the train
playing lazy tiggy
playing pool
walking far and wide for no reason
reminiscence of barney the purple dinosaur
adding numbers with barney the dinosaur...
and making bets on who sinks more pool balls
ahh yeah...good times, if only ...
hahaha *drool* at the guy in the polo shirt
anyways~ i'm off~
byebyes
Friday, September 12, 2008
good morning sweet sunshine
good morning thereeeeeeeee... yes its 9.11pm, and its totally morning
argh, wanna hear about my day and listen to me rant? well tomorrow night is the moon festival, a social event for those who love meeting up with old friends unexpectedly, attendance is crucial of course, but then again tagalongs and bump - into's are great
just trying not to expect anything too good out of it, coz knowing me something crappy might happen, you never know, but i should just sleep on it and not care right? i should, but somethings bothering me i dont know what
but if anything eventful happens tomorrow night i shall let my blog know
but besides that, i'm REALLY lacking sleep now, pranking people and bothering them on their phones...well not quite 'people' more like 'person' in particular but you know..?
we even have our own little game we play, you call them, say something quick, then hang up, they'd do the same and it goes on for ages
rather immature really but its WAY fun,
and what else is really cute? the way he says 'bye' before he hangs up
with a soft tone, a sweet and melodious 'bye' ... with me its always goodbyes isn't it? hello's just dont cut it for me anymore =_=
i am so weird. i hope this isn't a freaking middle school crush or anything, bah, who cares, i'm not thinking about it anymore, not worth it *nods* it isn't worth the trouble
until next time, [ while i ponder on a few thoughts about our situation ]
argh, wanna hear about my day and listen to me rant? well tomorrow night is the moon festival, a social event for those who love meeting up with old friends unexpectedly, attendance is crucial of course, but then again tagalongs and bump - into's are great
just trying not to expect anything too good out of it, coz knowing me something crappy might happen, you never know, but i should just sleep on it and not care right? i should, but somethings bothering me i dont know what
but if anything eventful happens tomorrow night i shall let my blog know
but besides that, i'm REALLY lacking sleep now, pranking people and bothering them on their phones...well not quite 'people' more like 'person' in particular but you know..?
we even have our own little game we play, you call them, say something quick, then hang up, they'd do the same and it goes on for ages
rather immature really but its WAY fun,
and what else is really cute? the way he says 'bye' before he hangs up
with a soft tone, a sweet and melodious 'bye' ... with me its always goodbyes isn't it? hello's just dont cut it for me anymore =_=
i am so weird. i hope this isn't a freaking middle school crush or anything, bah, who cares, i'm not thinking about it anymore, not worth it *nods* it isn't worth the trouble
until next time, [ while i ponder on a few thoughts about our situation ]
Thursday, September 11, 2008
late night phone calls
good morning all, are we sleepy?
coz i know i am >_<" staying up until 1 am for no apparent reason gahh...staying up talking on the phone, and i know two weeks from now, the phone calls will go into morning and further on..meaning no sleep for quite a while...argh whyy? i'm in denial, staying on the phone with some guy until late doens't mean i have any affection for him whatsoever
yeah thats right :]
but for now i shall continue doing my chores while i have the time >_> bah..
oh by the way, moon festival this weekend on saturday~ exciting~ ..but i'm not quite that excited =_=
just tired, lack of sleep, i should stop staring at my phone =_=
anywayyy i shall go *nods*
byebyes for now my super fantasmical online diary of bloggy-ness
coz i know i am >_<" staying up until 1 am for no apparent reason gahh...staying up talking on the phone, and i know two weeks from now, the phone calls will go into morning and further on..meaning no sleep for quite a while...argh whyy? i'm in denial, staying on the phone with some guy until late doens't mean i have any affection for him whatsoever
yeah thats right :]
but for now i shall continue doing my chores while i have the time >_> bah..
oh by the way, moon festival this weekend on saturday~ exciting~ ..but i'm not quite that excited =_=
just tired, lack of sleep, i should stop staring at my phone =_=
anywayyy i shall go *nods*
byebyes for now my super fantasmical online diary of bloggy-ness
Friday, September 5, 2008
first day, triumph..?
ohmygoshh.. first day of exam blocks! excitement and adrenaline somewhat related to exams and the fear of failing! no, its not fun at all but its exams i guess its not so bad
first up, physics and then maths! woohoo. physics..i guess it wasn't all that bad, the questions weren't too tricky but only i can say that through all the nighters and the extra tutor hours i've put in along with a few other people of course! and maths ...not quite so well, though it wasn't that bad either, not too hard, though i did skip a few questions coz i didn't study them >_> oh bummer =_= but i hope everyone else did well!
congrats everyone! first day is officially over! a weekend of study and ready up for the rest of the week full of exams for our own enjoyment!
hooray! now only english, biology and legal studies to go...not that far away, i better get back to study but before that i think i deserve a little bit to blog about something else
well i have a headache, i should take some panadol and go to sleep i'm so tired! but besides that, hehehe how fun are vortexs ?! the little whistling bullet shaped with-a-tail things that you throw? they're so much fun, i 'stole' one from a friend ..he stole my hat, so its more like a trade, but yeah i brought it home and dad thought it'd be fun to throw it at my head 5 times while i stressed out over physics
oh great, dad
speaking of parental daddy stuff, its fathers day soon! this weekend! 7th of september! yay! so what are you doing for fathers day? anything interesting? me? nah, the usual 'instant noodles breakfast in bed' routine and a fathers day card
something new this year, i got him a fathers day card, trippy yeah? hahaha i should really contribute more, but what do dads like? something that is memorable but not wallet-exploding-and-becoming-broke-for-months ?
i shall think about that some more...
but for now i think i'll go lie down a bit staring at my typing is giving me more of a headache [oh dear] so i shall bid ya'll adieu for now~
byebyes~
first up, physics and then maths! woohoo. physics..i guess it wasn't all that bad, the questions weren't too tricky but only i can say that through all the nighters and the extra tutor hours i've put in along with a few other people of course! and maths ...not quite so well, though it wasn't that bad either, not too hard, though i did skip a few questions coz i didn't study them >_> oh bummer =_= but i hope everyone else did well!
congrats everyone! first day is officially over! a weekend of study and ready up for the rest of the week full of exams for our own enjoyment!
hooray! now only english, biology and legal studies to go...not that far away, i better get back to study but before that i think i deserve a little bit to blog about something else
well i have a headache, i should take some panadol and go to sleep i'm so tired! but besides that, hehehe how fun are vortexs ?! the little whistling bullet shaped with-a-tail things that you throw? they're so much fun, i 'stole' one from a friend ..he stole my hat, so its more like a trade, but yeah i brought it home and dad thought it'd be fun to throw it at my head 5 times while i stressed out over physics
oh great, dad
speaking of parental daddy stuff, its fathers day soon! this weekend! 7th of september! yay! so what are you doing for fathers day? anything interesting? me? nah, the usual 'instant noodles breakfast in bed' routine and a fathers day card
something new this year, i got him a fathers day card, trippy yeah? hahaha i should really contribute more, but what do dads like? something that is memorable but not wallet-exploding-and-becoming-broke-for-months ?
i shall think about that some more...
but for now i think i'll go lie down a bit staring at my typing is giving me more of a headache [oh dear] so i shall bid ya'll adieu for now~
byebyes~
Thursday, September 4, 2008
all nighters and physics
ohmygahd.
all nighter last night full of studying legal studies, mathematics B and physics... nothing has been officially committed to memory yet, i'll cram later. this is prettyyy trippy. all nighters aren't good for you i've learned that much because i am so sleepy
right now its 1.03PM, and oh boy am i sleepy.
maybe i'll take a nap...yeah that would be good
ahh..and for those who live in brisbane, australia <3 come lookie at this store, it belongs to a small business and belongs to a friend of a friend of mine :] very very adorable clothing ;]
allure dreams wonderful store ♥
ahh well, byebyes for now since i have lots of study to do...exams are tomorrow...oh bummer
wish me luck =_=
all nighter last night full of studying legal studies, mathematics B and physics... nothing has been officially committed to memory yet, i'll cram later. this is prettyyy trippy. all nighters aren't good for you i've learned that much because i am so sleepy
right now its 1.03PM, and oh boy am i sleepy.
maybe i'll take a nap...yeah that would be good
ahh..and for those who live in brisbane, australia <3 come lookie at this store, it belongs to a small business and belongs to a friend of a friend of mine :] very very adorable clothing ;]
allure dreams wonderful store ♥
ahh well, byebyes for now since i have lots of study to do...exams are tomorrow...oh bummer
wish me luck =_=
Sunday, August 31, 2008
if i stare long enough maybe something miraculous will happen
ohmygosh, oh happy day, the weather of todays was absolutely wonderful, sunny yet cloudy all at the same time, a lovely sunrise and sunset i've witnessed this since i arose at 6.30 this morning for some stupid reason...
moving on, today i feel unbelieveably stupid, this physics work is confusing as hell and all i can do is stare at my friends green pencil case which we traded. He now uses my pink pencil-shaped pencil case, what a manly guy my friend is >_>
and maybe, just maybe if i keep staring at it long enough something miraculous will happen, maybe i'll understand all this work, cruise through all my exams, live a life without love triangles, fix everyones personality traits that bug me, and everyone will be compassionate and live on rainbows; grow fairy wings and learn to fly
i wish, right?
i mean seriously, staring at a pencil case ain't gonna fix anything in this world, i should get back to my studies, which is pretty gay and what else thats really gay? jersey names, everyones all freaked out and materialized by what they're gonna put on their jerseys for 2009, i wonder why i'm not bothering with this? maybe i'm not materialized enough, maybe i like who i am the way i am now, maybe i'm too sombre? am i?
what would look good on a jersey and make an impression?
for some reason, i honestly dont care, i've screwed up my year 9 jersey, thanks a lot to a friend who is overly exhausting, she talks WAY too much for anyone i know, self centred and completly delusional but at least she tries to understand, but damn as hell is she annoying. being the idiot i am, i listened to her word of advice:
"put 'dreamer' on your jersey, coz your always spacing out in class"
way to go, now i look like a total ditz i'm never wearing that jersey again
is that materialized enough? this materialization reminds me of msn jargon
the same girl constantly tells me 'i imitate people, i dont know why' makes me think she's using that as an excuse to copy other people coz she can't find her own thing, so she copies other people, it pisses me off.
what pisses me off more? she says 'LOL' literally, LOL as in a *lole* sound, why can't you just laugh like a normal person? you complete retard, is our society really overridden with these useless technology terms? makes me wonder, is it really our society? or is it just her attention seeking self? or maybe its me, maybe its my line of thought
who even has a line of thought? well thats just my opinion, am i making excuses? i hope not, excuses are for the pathetic.
apologies for the pessimism today, though the weather was wonderful
moving on, today i feel unbelieveably stupid, this physics work is confusing as hell and all i can do is stare at my friends green pencil case which we traded. He now uses my pink pencil-shaped pencil case, what a manly guy my friend is >_>
and maybe, just maybe if i keep staring at it long enough something miraculous will happen, maybe i'll understand all this work, cruise through all my exams, live a life without love triangles, fix everyones personality traits that bug me, and everyone will be compassionate and live on rainbows; grow fairy wings and learn to fly
i wish, right?
i mean seriously, staring at a pencil case ain't gonna fix anything in this world, i should get back to my studies, which is pretty gay and what else thats really gay? jersey names, everyones all freaked out and materialized by what they're gonna put on their jerseys for 2009, i wonder why i'm not bothering with this? maybe i'm not materialized enough, maybe i like who i am the way i am now, maybe i'm too sombre? am i?
what would look good on a jersey and make an impression?
for some reason, i honestly dont care, i've screwed up my year 9 jersey, thanks a lot to a friend who is overly exhausting, she talks WAY too much for anyone i know, self centred and completly delusional but at least she tries to understand, but damn as hell is she annoying. being the idiot i am, i listened to her word of advice:
"put 'dreamer' on your jersey, coz your always spacing out in class"
way to go, now i look like a total ditz i'm never wearing that jersey again
is that materialized enough? this materialization reminds me of msn jargon
the same girl constantly tells me 'i imitate people, i dont know why' makes me think she's using that as an excuse to copy other people coz she can't find her own thing, so she copies other people, it pisses me off.
what pisses me off more? she says 'LOL' literally, LOL as in a *lole* sound, why can't you just laugh like a normal person? you complete retard, is our society really overridden with these useless technology terms? makes me wonder, is it really our society? or is it just her attention seeking self? or maybe its me, maybe its my line of thought
who even has a line of thought? well thats just my opinion, am i making excuses? i hope not, excuses are for the pathetic.
apologies for the pessimism today, though the weather was wonderful
Saturday, August 30, 2008
oh my alah
ohmygosh, i've spent most of today sleeping and trying to study for my religious values exam coming up soon...in two days on monday, its on...hmm..judaism? [i dont even know what i'm studying] but i'm going for it.. and argh did you know there are SO MANY confusing terms upon the subject of 'judaism' and tends to be mistaken for 'israelism'? well that probably just me
'alah' is a term used to define the most overpoweringly powerful god in israelism, since its a monotheist religion [monotheist means you believe in one god]
and oh goodness, is it confusing or what? but i'm making good progress for someone who procrastinates a lot more than the average ._.
but thats what i've been doing lately, nothing muchh, not really looking forward to exams soon, they're next week friday...and i'm so screwed coz i dont think i'll be able to retain as much info on the exam as i'd like
great i'm gonna fail everything.
lovely, normally i'm a good student, most of the time, its just this time exams are just plain gay. nothing more, gay. and is there any relevant way of studying so that you remember more stuff? i know everyone studies and retains info differently, but what is my way of retaining info? how do you figure that out? its pretty confusing this type of stuff... what do they call it?
"self discovery"?
well self discovery is pretty trippy and i dont quite like it, although when you realise something about yourself it makes you feel better, but there are probably loads of people out there who know everything about themselves already and are looking for someone else to share that with, whereas, here i am - not a clue in the world about who i am
pretty sucky if you ask me, i wish i knew more, maybe this whole 'not knowing who i am' thing gives me a disadvantage about retaining info for studying too, so i'm a failure
thats great, awesome, i'm a failure.
*positive thought* it can only get better.
'alah' is a term used to define the most overpoweringly powerful god in israelism, since its a monotheist religion [monotheist means you believe in one god]
and oh goodness, is it confusing or what? but i'm making good progress for someone who procrastinates a lot more than the average ._.
but thats what i've been doing lately, nothing muchh, not really looking forward to exams soon, they're next week friday...and i'm so screwed coz i dont think i'll be able to retain as much info on the exam as i'd like
great i'm gonna fail everything.
lovely, normally i'm a good student, most of the time, its just this time exams are just plain gay. nothing more, gay. and is there any relevant way of studying so that you remember more stuff? i know everyone studies and retains info differently, but what is my way of retaining info? how do you figure that out? its pretty confusing this type of stuff... what do they call it?
"self discovery"?
well self discovery is pretty trippy and i dont quite like it, although when you realise something about yourself it makes you feel better, but there are probably loads of people out there who know everything about themselves already and are looking for someone else to share that with, whereas, here i am - not a clue in the world about who i am
pretty sucky if you ask me, i wish i knew more, maybe this whole 'not knowing who i am' thing gives me a disadvantage about retaining info for studying too, so i'm a failure
thats great, awesome, i'm a failure.
*positive thought* it can only get better.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Amusing Love, Lust and Blogs
oh wow now this is pretty trippy :O *fido's first ever blog*
...kinda too stupid to realise what blogging is, she decided to give it a go
well onto things coz i dont really wanna just sit back and think of what to write otherwise i'll start sounding like a complete dork and probably adding in song lyrics and quotes [how corny =_=]
gah, i'd love to vent about my lately musings of school and love...or lust or like or whatever you call it, how would you know if it was love/lust or whatever it is anyways?
honestly, how do you tell if you really LIKE someone? [i'm using childish terms, i know] is it when you try to make someone jealous and use someone else for it? or when you pick on them and call them homo or gay all the time? or always trying to bite them? and kicking them, punching them, or cuddling a stuffed animal because it reminds you of them?
because its all happened >_> which is pretty gay, i'm pretty immature in the way i act and stuff, i mean really... *gasp*
but being so i'm in denial, i dont like anybody AT ALL, coz thats how i roll YO. boys are stupid anyway, i have a best friend who has a boyfriend, he straightens his sideburns coz they 'curl to the side', exfoliates, tones, rather emotional the way he talks, fixes his girlfriends 'taste in clothes' when needed, and lets her apply chapstick on him.
sometimes i wonder if he's queer... overall he's a nice guy, just more emotional and exfoliative than most
woah, and big question, how do you interpret this: you have a business conference at school where, instead of wearing the normal school uniform you must wear business attire and everyone thinks you look fine even though your freaking out a bit if your underdressing but the guy your friend has been spreading rumours about you being in love with him says "you look funny"
what does that mean? 'you look funny'?
boys are stupid
another example, i have a close friend whos going out with this guy, she leaves to travel a country over the holidays and returns home late about 3 weeks into school. in that space of time, her boyfriends moved away from her, talks to 'amanda' the biggest ho in year 10, barely talks to his girlfriend let alone show affection, and one day gives his girlfriend a death stare? what exactly does that mean?
i dont quite get the whole relationship thing, but if i were ever in one, i'd try to make my decisions carefully, and now i sound like a total stuck up asshole but i'm honestly, not THAT stuck up, more of a ditzy, clumsy, loud, crazy, happy and optimistic person just losing their mind through a blog and expressing a few thoughts thats all :]
blogs are harmless right? for some reason, i'm rather ashamed of having a blog, what if someone finds out ? my reputation will go down the drain, these are personal stories i really dont want to get burned for a few thoughts, i hope this goes down well
until next time..
...kinda too stupid to realise what blogging is, she decided to give it a go
well onto things coz i dont really wanna just sit back and think of what to write otherwise i'll start sounding like a complete dork and probably adding in song lyrics and quotes [how corny =_=]
gah, i'd love to vent about my lately musings of school and love...or lust or like or whatever you call it, how would you know if it was love/lust or whatever it is anyways?
honestly, how do you tell if you really LIKE someone? [i'm using childish terms, i know] is it when you try to make someone jealous and use someone else for it? or when you pick on them and call them homo or gay all the time? or always trying to bite them? and kicking them, punching them, or cuddling a stuffed animal because it reminds you of them?
because its all happened >_> which is pretty gay, i'm pretty immature in the way i act and stuff, i mean really... *gasp*
but being so i'm in denial, i dont like anybody AT ALL, coz thats how i roll YO. boys are stupid anyway, i have a best friend who has a boyfriend, he straightens his sideburns coz they 'curl to the side', exfoliates, tones, rather emotional the way he talks, fixes his girlfriends 'taste in clothes' when needed, and lets her apply chapstick on him.
sometimes i wonder if he's queer... overall he's a nice guy, just more emotional and exfoliative than most
woah, and big question, how do you interpret this: you have a business conference at school where, instead of wearing the normal school uniform you must wear business attire and everyone thinks you look fine even though your freaking out a bit if your underdressing but the guy your friend has been spreading rumours about you being in love with him says "you look funny"
what does that mean? 'you look funny'?
boys are stupid
another example, i have a close friend whos going out with this guy, she leaves to travel a country over the holidays and returns home late about 3 weeks into school. in that space of time, her boyfriends moved away from her, talks to 'amanda' the biggest ho in year 10, barely talks to his girlfriend let alone show affection, and one day gives his girlfriend a death stare? what exactly does that mean?
i dont quite get the whole relationship thing, but if i were ever in one, i'd try to make my decisions carefully, and now i sound like a total stuck up asshole but i'm honestly, not THAT stuck up, more of a ditzy, clumsy, loud, crazy, happy and optimistic person just losing their mind through a blog and expressing a few thoughts thats all :]
blogs are harmless right? for some reason, i'm rather ashamed of having a blog, what if someone finds out ? my reputation will go down the drain, these are personal stories i really dont want to get burned for a few thoughts, i hope this goes down well
until next time..
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