Yes.

yesterday, me and lena decided to have a study day! one with her, me, dinh, colin, max and of course, jason.
sitting around the grassy area outside the art museum and state library, lying on him he asked
'when will i get your answer'
'when do you want it?'
'when you're ready'
'what if i'm ready now? like, right now, do you want to know now?'
'i dont know, when you want'
and so i smiled and said 'yeah..'

and so... after a year of shitty little crushes and nothingness, i'm attached. on the 26th of April 2009
and so we spent the day together, without the studying because we all had headaches and ducked out of it, to go play pool at cue city and MT
duh, we all looked really noob at pool because jason and max were so pro and had awesome games together and made everyones pool self esteem drop
and i couldn't even drive on manual at MT because i was so nervous playing with jason there, so in the end dinh and jason changed my gears for me because i was so distracted on how i was turning, whether or not i was braking or meant to be changing gears
i am such a noob.

as well as that, all in less than a week, i've lost my first cheek kiss, and a real kiss
my first ever kiss.
i'd never expect i'd lose it to him though, but theres a few things i learnt from being with him

• kisses are wet
• kisses are sweet
• his lips are soft (corny!)
• he's gentle
• he's very smooth
• he's the sweetest thing ever

that...and the fact that he told me something shitty happened today, something to do with Ellie (his ex) and maybe she hates me because i'm going out with him now

gosh. the horrors of teenage life

but i kinda spaced out, i space out at the best of times when i really need to be paying attention. but for sure, its not a good thing that she hates my guts. but really, its her problem isn't it? she had him, and she lost him because she didn't have a good enough relationship with her. its not really my problem whatever it is about her really. so i dont know, but i really hope he'll be okay about it, i didn't want to ruin things for him and i wish him all the best

and hopefully, this relationship will last longer than my last (3 weeks, how pathetic, if it weren't for asian parents it might have last longer... but its too late now) and i'm sure things will turn out fine.

and if not, i really hope they do.

i'm so into him, and i can't help it. Swoon.