and what have i learnt throughout the entire production? jealousy is a mad emotion that is uber way destructive and should be controlled!
but it lies innate within ourselves since the dawn of humanity and we can't do much about it except suppress it as much as possible
but i hate feeling jealous. its a sick emotion. i dont like it one bit.
on a more happier note, i should be recounting all the fun stuff i did today at the city after my terrible maths exam shouldn't i?
but i just can't shake this horrible feeling...
on my way home today at the bus stop with nhu, we ran into yo (my beloved twin) and we chatted away and stuff. but what i didn't realise was tony was in the bus that i was planning to catch. he saw us and assumed yo was the proclaimed 'jason - the boyfriend' and decided not to 'disturb us' as he said.
and so he noticed...but didn't say anything.
but have a soddy proverb to make your day, "curiousity kills the cat"
and in this case curiousity makes one jealous, which really sucks
and so, in conversation with tony earlier, he was in the city and i asked him what he did and if he had fun, you know... the small talk
and turns out, he had dinner with a good friend, who happens to be female
and that dinner happens to have lasted 2 hours
dinner..in the city... at night... personally, two people
something i've always kind of wanted i guess, but i can't complain, i had fun today
so it wouldn't matter to me whether she was his girlfriend or not, because i'm already committed and have no plans of breaking anything off
i know i know, you are committed now, you can't think of anyone else blah blah blah
but for some reason i can't help but feel a tinge of jealousy
and i can't do much about it but suppress it to my best ability.
in the hopes this feeling fades away, ciao~
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