POST NUMBER 69

AHAHAHAH i can't remember but its a been while i've laughed at the number '69' i know its immature but who cares!

hahaha

well.. i got back from sydney 2 nights ago and wednesday and boy i'm shit tired
hahah
and its only just hit me that we've only got one week of holidays left

jesus christ they went by fast! i wish they'd stayed ...!

and in so little time i have to go out and do my chores and keep myself busy and learn to drive and get totally driven crazy

i was hoping for his holidays to just wind down and do nothing but a few of this, a little of this here and just relax but no, its been so full of it already!

parents wont stop their parental nagging about how bad my report card is, or how little i've been doing around the house lately, or what i should be doing and whatnot. argh, shut up and leave me alonnnnnnne! i can't even sit down and watch a movie without mum having to nag her way through the door and telling me to do something else.

christ, its term three next term and dont i get a grace period where i can just hang out on the holidays? it is the holidays after all!

but i can't really say that after my parents let me go to sydney can they? ..ahh if only!

i'm just so tired and disappointed. the whole break up and jason being all unsure and kind of mopey.. oh i just dont know.

the soppy report card
the soppy ex boyfriend
the one - week holiday left
the nagging parents
the so - much - to - do - so - little - time syndrome

with only a week of holidays left and so many promises to fulfil! i told nghi and alan and haiyen and cam that i'd go out with them and blah blah blah plus the driving lessons and chores and the nagging parents and the ..ARGH i'm being driven up the wall on the holidays

my head literally hurts now that i've though about it...

and i doubt my parents are going to let me out too... what a prick.
ugh.

i feel so lazy! i dont want to do anything but sit around and do nothing and/or go out.
is that too selfish? but i'm so sick of putting up with the parents nagging for a whole 10 weeks with the boyfriend thing, and i finally did what they wanted me to. and bam, here they go again, nagging again! only about different things only to compensate for not nagging me over the term because i wasn't doing any chores

sort of like them thinking 'oh she's got a boyfriend, lets nag her about it and save the nagging about the chores for later'
so once the whole dramatic scenario is over they go and think 'oh thats over, lets nag her about her chores because we missed it out before'

yeah right.

i finish dealing with one thing, and all i want to do is relax and whine about my disappointing grades and with them constantly saying "oh... you know why you got a bad report card right? *hinthint BOYFRIEND*"

is that what parents do? they just .. rub things in? i'm sorry i tried to make things better maybe i should just keep this going and do what you said and drop out of school

why dont i?

i'm so tired of all this.
its not even a big deal but i'm so sick of it.
i can't pretend its not bothering me.

i want to be left alone to do what i want, please.