OPs are out!

Christmas is officially over!

The new years looms! Welcome 2010 WOOO :D

Well what have we been up to lately hey?

I know what I’ve been up to…NOTHING :D not really actually
The ops came out and so many people did so well this year, I’m so happy for everyone! (sounds downright corny and stupid yeah?) but I really am! Hurrah!

And for Christmas family friends from Sydney have come to visit us here in Brisbane! We’ve been to countless dinners/lunches/brunches/maccas with them for a week and so far we’ve been to movieworld (well I have at least) and Australia zoo and wet n wild (damn I wish I went!) and other random places

Speaking of which, parents are at their place eating dinner as I type this fo shiz. Haha.
And for Christmas eve, I swear I love Christmas eve (and Christmas eve eve for that matter) more than Christmas day itself! But for Christmas eve I cleaned the house from top to floor (what the?) and during the night I went out to dinner with my one and only favouritest uber guardian angel Nghi!

He took me to Sono! A Japanese restaurant somewhere in the city and its SO nice

There are normal dining tables and ..wait for it… tatami mat tables:O and not only that but the waitresses wear KIMONOS and the food is just SO good (only very small in proportion) but it was a nice night out and Jason decided to come see us too J so we hung out at southbank for a while before nghi had to leave and me and Jason stayed out a little late :D

Then for Christmas day we had the Sydney people over for Christmas lunch/dinner + seven crazy children (no need to elaborate on their crazy energy) and during the late afternoon we went to mt coot tha and we went somewhere at night too but I’ve forgotten :D

Then boxing day we woke up early for dad to unveil a secret gift wrapped in a box of beer which turned out to be a Nintendo WII I was like ZOMGS

But really mums been wanting a wii since forever ahahah

But yes and then I opened my box of chocolates D: and then we went for boxing day sales :D where we bought a food processor, an ipod stereo speaker aaaaand…BOOKS

Many many books were bought and lots of gifts for jasonface (which I haven’t given him yet) but I will give them to him tomorrow! I got him a book (oliver twist by Charles dickens), the movie titanic (because he sniffles when he watches this movie, aw cute!), a new wallet for use (cause he always uses his old ones…haha) and a music box ‘you are my sunshine’ because he used to sing that song to me J and a paper rose aaaaaand that’s it :D

Hurrah, well tomorrow I’m heading out the city (first stop, HAIYENS PLACE!) to see haiyens new miaowmiaows (cats) and name them (*I am absolutely Honoured to be able to name them*) and then we’re going to go see Avatar in 3D! YAY

I wish you all a happy Christmas and a merry new year! :D and congrats on everyones OPs! :D

Ciao! :)

OP breakdown: Initialise

Oh wow, its been a while since I’ve done anything on this blog hey? Haha maybe coz I’ve been so busy doing chores and helping mother sew and eating mothers criticism all day long :)

But other than that it’s been good lately although nothing much has really happened. A city outing with Jason once… and… well that’s about it

Oh and a handing-in-resume/talking-with-the-supervisor thing going on with a takeaway shop in broadway on the mall in an attempt to find a job. But the takeaway shop job looked really crap and you had to wear long pants to work (work place healthy and safety…ugh) and it just looked really grotty and gross that’s all :)

So at the moment, I am unemployed and need a job… argh I don’t like being unemployed when I’m not studying my brains out… what AM I going to do?!
Oh dear.. anyhow

Tomorrow is dinh’s birthday too, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY DINH muahahah I like patting your hair, its always so fluffy :)

And he has invited some (I think) of the FLC cohort + a few others to a party at his place! Gosh, I wanted to go but chyeah

But! Through much persuasion from me to mother everything is dandy now… phew
I never knew persuasion itself could be so exhausting. But oh well… at least everything worked out

And on Sunday, is me and Jason’s two months! Hurrah! ♥

But before all that two month thing happens… the OP will be arriving via email on the 19th… Saturday… oh bugger. *Breathes in…breathes out*

It’ll be alright. Hopefully, it can’t be that bad right? Well I wish all you out there who are getting your Ops soon the best of luck… I reckon we all need it, especially for the pre-OPgetting breakdown part which drivesus all into denial and such (literally)

Well I’m off for now, ciao!
Good luck! :)

brothers trying to pick up best friends ;)

Rahhhr hows it going all? DX

Lately nothing really awesome has happened. But I did go city the other day but me and Jason figured city was boring and we were both broke and bluh anyway so we went back to his place.

Then Saturday rolled around and today me and haiyen and avian went to viet school to watch/help out with the graduation ceremony of class 2009 (good job kids, viet school sucks so you survived :) ) and yes we sat around for about 3 hours listening to speeches and kiddies singing and dancing, playing piano, guitar, whatever.

And spoke to a few old teachers and got caught up in some sort of ‘vietnamese trung vuong alumni association social club’ thing where we get together as an alumni group to hang out and such twice a year (during hai ba trung ceremony and mid autumn festival I think?) but chyeah twas good but haiyen just wanted to leave hahahah

Haiyen then drove to inala in her awesome Juliet (Toyota Echo) and bought bubble tea where aivans little brother continued to hit on her muahahaha

‘Have you got a boyfriend? Can I have your number?’

LOL that kid :)

Then haiyen drove me home where I sat on my butt all day reading ‘The boy in striped pyjamas’ by John Boyne. It’s a really good book about the Nazi revolution and Bruno whose dad is a commander working for the Nazi’s and meets a Jewish boy on the other side of the fence (of the concentration camp, that is) but its a good book *nods*

But yesh, I’ll be heading off now
Ciao! :)

weeheeeeeeeewtfeeeee

Wowzors (haha I’m so lame) I haven’t blogged in literally a forever! Oh wow I can’t even remember… hmm.. shitcakes where to start?!

Mkays LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL lets just recap his quickly coz I’m hungry!
Ka maya maya *time warp*

Monday was … normal classes and NOC I think.. (lets be blunt here) NOC sucked and I laugh at it coz me and lena decided it was too gay to attend and were supposed to bus it but in the end we were too lazy and went to eat fish and chips and sit on our asses for a very long time

Tuesday was… eh what was it.. spiritual retreat I believe. No aircon, I believe we all died that day but it was good fun playing scissors paper rock and life squares or windows or parallelograms or whatever and that really cool reconciliation thing at the end with the bowls of water. It was really sweet the whole ‘ngaww we’re going to apologize for all the shitty things we’ve done to each other in the past’ so that in the future we will be released from our sinly sins and stuff and it was really nice. But first nobody dared move because we all thought ‘eerr I’m not going first, I’ll look like a douche’ you know? But once people started getting up and we all started crying and in the end we sang wonderwall together as a cohort which was uber sweet

Wednesday was… lots of speeches about sex and cars.. oh and valedictory dinner. Ahahah but it sounds better as ‘sex and cars’ doesn’t it? Technically it was more of sexual education speech (the year 9 talk actually) where the penis carries lots of silly little germs and I quote that woman from S.H.op 101 ‘and you want to stick it where?!’ oh yes, lots of fun we learnt things we already knew and apparently the white little dildo penis thing was about the size of coop’s thumb… (thanks, much needed Vincent) and then valedictory dinner and the chapel service. it was really nice and mushy and valedictory dinner served really nice chicken (mmmm….) and a very funny speech from thisun and lots of references to ms Bu** and her knack of handing out infringements and ..of course.. the physics cat that can write faster than neeraj

Thursday was …DREAMWORLD the best experience ever I’d have to say! Just going on all those crazy rides and being dragged onto the giant drop (which I succeeded to avoid, HAHA) oh and how could we forget about losing Ben? He just drifted off somewhere and we lost him for a while (but we had a treasure hunt looking for him so everything was dandy once we found him around the food courts) and tony and the duck… (Tony: ‘LUNCH LUNCH, COME HERE LUNCH’) oh that poor little duck

And then comes Friday.. the last day of high school ever. Being farwelled and giving all the little preppies and alpine kids high fives (some were very vicious with their hifives I’ll have you know) and the little girl with the cute voice that made the whole room go ‘awww’ and of course, JESSICA! I’ll miss you jessicaaaaaaaaaa <3 ceremony =" ="

Then headed out to the city later that day to play pool and have dinner at sizzlers with loc but with a curfew I wouldn’t be able to get home on time = = so the girls stayed back at the city doing stuff (I can’t remember what)

And since then its been a week and a half with a trip to wet n’ wild and movieworld
Wet n’ wild was full of cutesy little adventures of going on slides and rides and peer pressured into flashing a bikini (uhh..) and getting it undone (coughalancough)

Movieworld was full of escapades of alex forcing me and nhu onto the superman coaster (which didn’t work, phew) and being totally obsessed with batman masks (and batman in general) :D

So far its been really good, but we’ll see what the rest of the postgraduate holidays have for us! Muahahaha
Hope to blog again soon

Ciao!

finals!

Howdy all! How are we this awesome fine Saturday morning/afternoon-ish? Lol
Wow I haven’t been blogging in a while haven’t i? well I shall recap whats happened so far in the past…uhh.. 2 weeks? :D

Birthdays birthdays birthdays!
Mine, alex’s and max’s! happy birthday alex & max have an awesome 17th LOL

And exams! Which are actually all officially over by now! (considering today is Saturday and exams finished yesterday) HURRAH

And now the year 12s are heading straight on down to their last week of high school EVER woooooo I’m so excited! :D

On Monday is gonna be that terrible little viet exam and a normal school day + night of celebration that evening

Tuesday is year 12’s retreat day where we head off to some camp someplace far away to ‘reflect on our schooling years’

Wednesday is a normal school day + valedictory dinner that evening

Thursday is trip to dreamworld! WOOHOO so excited!

And Friday is official give-out-SAIs and graduation day! Wooooooo I can’t wait to get out there into the big wide world!

And did I tell you dear blog? I’m gonna go find a job soon! A job… somewhere possibly Frat House (YES ABERCROMBIE AND FITCH BABY HAHAA) or a BUBBLE TEA STORE in the middle of nowhere :D (not really nowhere but meh)

Yayyy I’m so excited! This week is going to be AWESOME! I’ll blog it as I go and all the happy la la events that happen along the way! Well I’m off for now!

Have a good weekend!
Ciao bella! ♥

halloweenyyyy @ Sarah's + Max's

HI! wow its been a while since I’ve blogged anything hasn’t it?

Well nothing too much has been happening lately besides the Halloween party last weekend which was pretty awesome; Sarah was a good host (y)

Hahaha how did that day go… well it was really boring because I wasn’t in a mood to do anything really so I was waiting for time to roll around until 6pm until I could get dressed and go to Lena’s place lol but after we got there, we drove to the party picked up Dinh and went to go pick up Jason

But who knew the toll road on the Logan motorway was all stuffed up and we didn’t have a little beeper thing to get past it, so we followed Dinh’s directions – which were loudly yelled at Lena right in her ear by Dinh himself. Which didn’t make Lena too happy, and I wasn’t too happy either because my directions were shit. So ooh err..

Then we managed to pick up Jason! Woo that took effort if you ask me.

Then we hit the party and Dinh couldn’t get us our drinks… because he was too busy yelling at the poor by passers on the footpath and scaring them… so Lena got more supremely upset too but it was alright coz we stole drinks off Sam and Daniel and took sips from everyone else’s’ drinks hehe

So that night dinh and lena were edgy… and they were both kinda tipsy and things were starting to roll out of control there. And Jason was pissed at me too because I promised him I wouldn’t drink much, but he decided at a point where it was too much and he walked off somewhere. So I got all ‘aw he’s pissed at me. Lets drink some more’ and neeraj was with me at the time so we went to go find more drinks muahahah

Poor neeraj, couldn’t walk or even stand after two drinks. Hahaha XD

But yeshum after some more drinks…and some more sips..and some more drinks and a bit of lemonade and midori and a LOT of toilet trips to the wee little port-a-loo (which had barf in the sink, it was so icky coz the sink was really shallow too) Jason dragged me away to the car where he forced me to sleep

And lena was forced to exercise to work off her alco too because she was gonna be driving later that night. Lol it was very interesting *nod*

Jason forgave me, hurray! And dinh was less upset by the time lena was able to run in a straight line. And I’m sorry for PDA-ing in your car and making out lena, but those little fucks with torches decided to shine them at the car. Charming to come into school on Monday morning to people saying ‘OMG leanne was making out in someone’s car’ (… I see you have no life, I’m sure you make out too so get fucked.)

Then we left for max’s house! We got there crashed and almost instantly decided to hit the hay and just go sleep. But all of us did a lot more than just sleep…
Then comes Sunday morning 7am, we did not sleep in, we did a little more than just sleep in too…

Then comes Sunday morning 10am, eggs and bacon on toast for breakfast. Max is so pro at cooking eggs and bacon; he lives on the stuff, really. And the guys sit at the table, girls on the floor while the guys discuss their sexual exploits the night before

‘Dude I was gonna ask you for a condom but I was like…nahhh’
‘really? I had like five right here’

Yeah you can imagine. Only at the time it was hilariously funny.
Then after some bumming around and doing nothing until 12 me and lena headed home… she drove me to her place where we fell asleep for another 2 hours or so before I actually did head home.

But hey, nice night out. I was expecting to sleep that night actually, but one thing led to another and there we go. But it was still really fun. Yay for Halloween!

Well I’m off now, gotta shower and sit on my butt or something.

Ciao! ♥

to get my butt into gear *nod*

Oh ho! Its that time of the term again! The week upcoming exam block! And can you believe it? Its gonna be the last exam block in our schooling history as high school students! Wow… everything is coming to an end so fast! And yet everyday is such a drag! LOL

Well lately, the week has been full of cramming in as much study as possible while trying to get as much video gaming and funness into everything we’ve got~ but I think I should be cramming study more because I’ve had brain block (literally brain block, as in ENTIRE BRAIN block) and I can’t do anything right! But you just watch I’m not gonna graduate with my marks going down! I’m going to do well!

Motivation
Motivation
Motivation!

Phew… and sarah’s Halloween party is this weekend on the Saturday..i hope parents let me sleepover! I can’t go home tipsy… that’s not a pretty image for my parents to see D:
But we’ll see how things go

Wish me luck!

Study, study, study! (or attempt to at least)
Ciao!

study + ice world

Ahh I just remembered just now! But I didn’t blog about the uber awesome thing that happened last weekend! Hahaha let me recount for you! :D

Well recount parts of what I remember anyhow…
But I remember Saturday was a really slow morning coz alex called up early at 8 and said ‘HI LEANNE, COME OVER THIS AFTERNOON TO STUDY AND SLEEPOVER’ gawd it was great lol

Rocked up at alex’s at about 5.30 and ..well..we watched glee ahaha and then lena came over. Then we shoved 3 packets worth of frozen fish/chicken/spinach pastry thingies into the oven and set out our stuff for good good study that we were all looking forward to oh so muchly
Everything was going dandy before I had some weirdo nerve reaction… it goes from rubbing my eyes and it makes me start sneezing uncontrollably. So much that I needed eyedrops and a box of tissues next to me while I attempted to study wearing glasses while my eyes were watering like niagra falls (as alan would say)

Then we ate and watched POKEMON 2000 and saw green penis head girl. Hahahah her fringe stuck out of her cap and it looked like a giant crooked green penis. LOL

Then we went back to study until it hit about 11pm and we all jumped on msn and got distracted until 1 in the morning and decided we HAD to watch john tucker must die before we went to bed…and so we did just that… before the dvd stuffed up that is.

Then next morning we all rushed to cook rubbery bread and eggs, showered and me and lena rushed off to tutor. Even after all that lazy rushing we were late by half an hour, almost fell asleep in tutor several times (good stuff that was) and then lena dropped me off at inala… where we then realized Jason wasn’t there and drove to the village in forest lake to buy pads coz lena’s vagina was leaking red. (sorry for the vulgar language, lena) and then we drove back to inala, lena dropped me off (THANK YOUU LENABUFFET)

Met up with Jason, jumped into a taxi… after he threw a few biscuits of hello panda at the car first (..idiot) paid a heap of money for a fifteen minute ride to ICE WORLD

We put on some skates and skated for 3 hours or so. With hot chocolate, a cup of noodles and cuddles in between I managed to stack it on the ice 4 times! Only small stacks though! Like running into the wall, not knowing how to stop..you know. Until…Jason made a HUGE stack. It sort of went like this..

Stumble > spin > arm flailing > stumble > spin again (with arm flailing all in between) > fall on butt > sudden turn around on jason’s part > land on face

Are you imagining it? Coz I am and its making me laugh (:

Then after all that we hit the city to karaoke for half an hour and caught the bus home … and he caught the bus with me. Which was different, it really was.

But my weekend was way fun the only down side was… well I barely got any study done thanks to going ice skating/city and major torrent of tears + eyedrops and runny noses.

Anyhow, I’m done here… its 7.41 and I should be doing something useful!
Ciao! ♥

bitch post :)

You know, I really, really, really looked forward to seeing you yesterday and I wish you weren’t so withdrawn and quiet.

I have to admit I was kind of disappointed because I was really hoping to spend time with you because we don’t get to see each other very often; but its okay. Maybe next time.

When I asked if you were okay, did that really come across as ‘worrying too much’? I wish you’d tell me what’s bothering you or what’s on your mind every so often! It annoys me that you don’t because it feels like you don’t trust me.

But who am I to say?
You’ll never know, so I’ll forget it.

See you next time then, and maybe you’d be in a better mood too.
Ciao~

I'm yours

Wow I haven’t been blogging lately and I just realized, only because I’ve been too busy doing NOTHING these whole weeks or so~

Hmm what’s happened lately..gah I don’t remember at all besides school!

School, ever since term four started, has just been mushed into one long day into another long day into one massively massive big long day! Like that feeling where time has just stopped and its uber boring and nothing ever interesting happens at school anymore because everyone’s so… mm..de-motivated to do anything at all

Hence, the mushing days into one big mush

But hopefully this one big mush will be all over soon! By the time exam blocks and graduation rolls around we’ll look back and think ‘WOW why did it feel like mush?! I’m gonna miss being a senior so much!’

Hopefully I will pick up the pace and be happy at school, instead of thinking about it as a big mush

Which kinda reminds me of Truong. I think he went through this too once and everything really bored him a lot, he referred to it as ‘mid life crisis’ (LOL at truong)
But chyeahh that’s school for you

And oh yeah, darra fest was on last Sunday! It was so… disappointing actually because I expected lots of people from around darra and all ‘WOO DARRA BETCHES’ you know? But it was more of a few stalls scattered here and there, 2 games, 2 rides and a small stage..oh and the one single lone kid on the chairs ride..poor kid, I would’ve gone on the ride with him if I could be bothered (maybe not) >_>

We went to pick up sam’s cousin, dropped her off at the darra fest then went to pick up Jason and I’m going crazy coz when he got in the car I felt nauseous and WEIRD. Hahaha but its okay :D

Then we went to the darra fest, walked around for about half an hour and realized it was kinda boring so we decided to go eat sushi at Oishii! Damn I love that place. But after all that drive we realized that we couldn’t really afford really good sushi at all and the drive was a waste of petrol … so instead we hit KFC at mt Ommaney (which was kind of dumb since there was a KFC at sunnybank and lots of other things to do and we were…mhmm in sunnybank! I just reckon dinh wanted to drive because he’s a driving junkie)

But yes we went to KFC, we sat at the KIDS TABLE where we discriminated the pink elephant and laughed at the blue monkey trying to spank a little kid and I was forced to eat a piece of chicken… (uhh I was so full and it was either the chicken or the big tubs of coleslaw + potato and gravy mixed together..)

Then we left where dinh stole lena’s jazz and drove around the carpark like a bitch (which used up petrol some more) and lena was a little angry about him taking her car (I mean, it’s a CAR, its pretty damn valuable if you ask me) and sam threw us 20 cents and said ‘GET A HOME’
Tch, boys and their cars >_>

So after that we hit the darra fest again and realized nothing had changed and it was still pretty shitty and left to MT COOT THA

So we ordered latte’s and hot chocolates and sat around

I managed to splash Jason in the face with grotty fountain water (muahahah) and it was uber fun and nice because of all the pretty lights and the batman light flashing in circles :D

We bummed and ran around on the lookout and I really can’t imagine the last time I’d felt so light and happy before hahaha it was THAT fun and it was a really nice night to be out too even though it was uber cold

It was like…woooo floating and it was awesome, never felt anything like it; it was so awesome-o
Oh and he asked me out again, now I don’t know what to say… can I leave things as they are? Its quite fun as it is :D (tehehe i think i love him lots) (<- fuck i sound so mushy!)

But yes, as awesome as it was we had hot chocolates that needed to be drunk and I had a curfew to attend to… grr

But its okay, it was still lots of fun

But that was last weekend! This weekend I’m gonna catch up on some sleep, study biology (because I’m falling behind… + everything else too.. I’m falling behind on everything from this lack of motivation, it sucks) and on Sunday gonna go to tutor and then me and lena are heading to indro and the city! Because I need to go shopping for that special textured paper for my art extension and hand in a resume at that craft store hurrah! Hopefully I’ll get a job soon!

Wish me luck! Goodnight
Ciao! ♥

reality & identity

I don’t know much about your personalities but as far as I know, you’re such stereotypes!
I’m sorry, I don’t mean to just go around bitching about everyone and their non-individuality but I want to let it out (:

But is it that hard to just fit in by being yourself? Instead of having to go around swearing and using ridiculous colloquialisms like ‘ohmygot’ and always having to flame others because they’re either a) prettier than you or b) not as pretty as you?

I’m sorry if I sound like an uptight anal bitch, but what happened to the individuality in generation Y hmm?

Everyone’s conforming to the popular circle and life is based on what’s in and what’s not? Who really cares anyway?

I mean, just get over the bad mohawk haircuts, the heavy eyeliner, circle lenses, and sticking your eyelids together to make then ‘double eyelids’. The need for the constant new shoes and dresses just to go somewhere not even half fancy and worth the trouble, the need for a new boyfriend when you’re single and the fact that you want to look like a rebel just to fit in with the new ‘asian generation’.

Sure its fine to be into fashion and design, but do you really have to go all the way as to photoshop every existing photo you own to turn it into a bright light background and wear blue circle eyed contact lenses to attract the attention of bebo-goers?

Who really cares about what’s hot or not? Because if everyone conforms to the same thing, we will all look the same. And where’s the fun in that?

You asian teeny boppers are all the same but how would I know? I’m sure you have your own reasons

I hope I don’t judge people on how poofy the top layer of their hair is or how well they apply their makeup.

I’m glad my friends are real and unique <3
I’m glad I got to rant (:
Ciao~

hahaa

haha nghi just cracks me up
check this out:
Alexander Do has cracked the mysteries of Evolution. From the beginning... Amoeba ==> First vertebrate ==> Monkey ==> George W. Bush ==> Chimpanzee ==> Human

hahahah i dont know why but it find that so funny, and i'm not even into political type humour LOL

ahh first day of term four! i had a mega stomach ache >_<
school was ay okayy, not awesome, not too bad
tomorrow will be better, im' sure :]

OH OH
if you wanna be my lover, you gotta getwith my friends! if you wanna be my lover, you have got to give ~ say you could handle my love, are you for real?

hahahahah :3

ahh this new spring weather (even though it kicked in a while ago...) is making everyone so sick! my mummy's sick and jasons sick and alan has a bad cough and i think i'm starting to get sick too...bah

i hope everyone gets better soon, getting sick is just not fun

anyhoww i'm gonna sign off and maybe do something useful with myself instead of blogging about nothing :3

ciao!

haha on a last note!
justins twitter (shitmydadsays):
"Does anyone your age know how to comb their fucking hair? It looks like two squirrels crawled on their head and started fucking."

all encompassing

i heard somewhere on a video i watched somewheres about love
and i remember it was about this couple, who talked about love
and all they said about each other were really negative things
the way they fight, the way they disagree to everything

but by the end the two people confessed that no matter what gets between them they had this love

something about how it won't stop because 'of this all emcompassing love for you'
whatever it was, it was really sweet

i might not know what love is, but hey, i think this comes pretty close to what i reckon it is

but hey, whatever :D
as far as i know, i'm not the 'other girl' (as much as i wish i were lol >_>) because he has given up so much for someone like me
and i really appreciate it

its silly i know
but i think i love you

PS. today was moon fest, it was awesome. & yes i just wanted to rant about how lovely and charming he is :3 (no sarcasm)

The Other Woman ?! :OOOOO

and its true!
but i LOL at your photoshopped girlfriends

cue dodgy comment..

maybe?
it tht a yes or no?
no actually i am her cousin and me tryna find who her bf is
are u her bf?[sorri if ur not]

p.s please please dont tell anything to zing xD

hahaa does this mean he is going out with another girl? does this make me, the other girl?

ooh i have to say, this is a little exciting

but he's probably just toying with the poor girl by saying 'maybe'

again, LOL at your photoshopped friends

birthday + city

Today we went to the city! Hurrah!

It was for Mumbai (neeraj)’s birthday party! What a great guy (:
He is now seventeen tehhe

But today, getting dropped off at the train station I ran into AIVAN! What a lovely surprise! Really! Who knew, just the one day I was going out and taking the train avian was going out too! It was great :D

Went to the city bought two ties! One for mumbai’s birthday gift, and one for jasonface. I promised Jason I’d buy him a tie because his dodgy tie from cotton on wasn’t a very pretty one ):

But yes, me and Jason had a stakeout outside cue city waiting for it to open and once it did we were the first people in that day! Hooray! And then we played pool and I kicked his ass

Quote jasons friend ‘I’ll pay you ten bucks if you can beat her’ (her as in reference to me)

Hahaha I don’t know if I should take that as a compliment or an insult really. Did I suck that much? Or was he complimenting me ?
I do not know.

Anyways. Met up with Mumbai and everyone at abouts 11somethings and went to the funhouse, bought movie tickets to the surrogates and then went to play pool some more

Hahaha I felt like such a bogan the whole day coz I was wearing jasons clothes + bag. Whatta bogan. >_>

But hey it was fun, and that’s all that matters

So HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMBAI, hope you had a WONDERFUL DAY :D

change

you're changing...

i'm really happy for you

and i appreciate it a lot

hahaaa

woops i think i'm falling for you again

To let go

To “let go” does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To “let go” is not to enable, but to allow the realization I can’t control another. To “let go” is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To “let go” is not to try to change or blame another, it is to make the most of myself. To “let go” is not to care for, but to care about.

To “let go” is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To “let go” is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To “let go” is not to be in the middle of arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To “let go” is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.

To “let go” is not to deny, but to accept.

To “let go” is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings & to correct them.

To “let go” is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, & to cherish myself in it.

To “let go” is not to criticize & regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be. To “let go” is not to regret the past, but to grow & to live for the future.

To “let go” is to fear less & to love more.

I should really let both of you go. Because frankly, as much I love you both; it confuses me so much.
But if I can’t, we’ll see what happens next :]

ciao! ♥

f-f-f-formal !

formal day last night/morning!
hahaha

got up at ...earlyish.. in the morning and got so bored waiting for time to pass by so i could go pick up ashen's corsage... gosh its so boring WAITING for time...!
went to go pick up the corsage, race home, shower, eat and head out to the makeup/hair stylists place

she did my hair and STUCK ON FAKE EYELASHES
and i think she glued my eyelids shut for a while.

but its okay because i could open them after a while, but phwoah man it looks totally different
like
*leanne looks in mirror*
"WHO THE EFF IS THAT"

my eyes looked bigger and chinker.
like a true asian

hahahaah
and bah! at the hair stylists place they pulled out their cameras and started taking photos
and i'm like '..i dont want any photos...can we leave soon? i want to sleep'

and they were like 'NO TURN THIS WAY...DO THIS..HOLD THIS'
and they were freaking camwhoring on me.
wtf
(i have photos to prove this camwhoring too)

but chyeah, raced home, grabbed stuff together and headed out to alex's place where it started raining as soon as we got there LOL

and the hummer pulled up
and we all WOOed and OHMYGOSHed a whole heap and then piled in :D

the inside of the hummer sounded a bit like this:
The Guys: JAI HO!
The Girls: (in particular lena) SNIFF THE MIST, GO ! QUICK BEFORE IT GOES AWAY

Then we arrived, went in, talked around, took photos, asian squatted (you know, the usual D: )

We went in, listened to some short speeches, exchanged words, ate
Hahaha it was hilarious watching ashen trying to eat that bread with goats cheese
“How do you hold a fork? DAMN IT I EAT WITH MY HANDS! STUFF THIS”

LOL ahh good times
I have to admit, I was uber quiet throughout the whole night
Only because I felt out of place (seriously..a dress AND a tiara?) and formals aren’t really my type of thing but everyone looked absolutely stunning

Going with ashen was really nice though
But.. I have to admit… the guy that looked the best that night would have to be Alan
And the best girl? I don’t know because everyone looked so good D: (especially Kim!) (her date was kinda cute too J )

But wow, everyone looked so amazing XD

Then the formal ended, and truly, I wanted to say goodbye to ashen before he left but he just stalked off somewhere and left quietly… probably because of his parents and the whole formal date issue… I don’t know but I hope he’s doing alright

Then we went home, stopped by maccas to order 4 happy meals and came back to my place to bum and watch movies all night
We played spin the bottle truth or dare! And doing impersonations was fun!
Hahaha Nhu’s Mr Ford impersonation
*places V cardboard on head, happy meal box, walks around like a little kid with a lunchbox*
Ms Adenyi! “are you making fun of my VOIIIIIIIIICE”

LOL
Ahhh..we didn’t get any sleep at all..or barely any anyway

But it was way fun, so I’m gonna go sit on my butt for some more and go ..do something somewhat interesting now
Hahaha

Kudos to the people who organized and put together the formal J
And I can’t wait until the professional photos come out on Wednesday! ( I hope I look decent…!)

Ciao! ♥

today~

today! it is TODAY
because it is currently 12.14am

and the formal is technically today :)

hardkore isn't it? i was so not looking forward to this a few weeks ago and now BAM! in your face, the formal is here D:

but it'll be fun, it has to be!

because i told nghi i would have as doubly fun, for him as well because his formal for him was mediocre
so my formal has to be doubly fun for his sake too :3

and i'm sure it will be, i wonder what its like... wow... i'm curious
and this curiousity makes me excited

but since its so late, i'm just informing the internet world that the formal is tomorrow and i am quite hungry :D

i can't wait to watch jackass during the sleepover though LOL

goodnight! ciao! ♥

open mindedness (:

BE OPEN!

zomg i can't believe its actually happening. i think i've been in denial :)
the formal is actually happening

and it happens in exactly 3 days from today

and i need jewelry

i can't wait to see the pink hummer though... and everyone will so fancy ~ the guys in their dashing little suits and the girls in flowy pretty dresses D:

i wish i could stay home and just watch it all happen.. instead of actually going
i think i'm nervous, i dont know, but i've never been one for these things..

as much as i dont enjoy shopping or dressing up, there will always be a first!

so here goes...

formal here we come... countdown T minus 3 days

PS> i hope i dont embarrass ashen by doing something stupid... i wonder what he feels about going with a complete crazy loony like me (:

conform

i officially declare, i hate you

i dislike you so much.

i can't stand you.

why can't you make life a little simpler for me by making the right decisions for yourself?
i'm letting go, i can't do this anymore because i bore you too much.

in return, why dont you go run along and go find a new girl to impress her with your smoking and shoplifting?

have a good life, because you won't want me there in the future anyway

so fuck you

have fun trying to impress ☺

When things get messed up

I lift my head up

And I get lost in the clouds

good morning!
oh guess what?

terrible day, once again... or am i becoming a pessimist?

Gosh school sucks lately. And everyone has so many issues, I would appreciate it if i could stop worrying right now.

the whole career, QTAC, parents, grandparents, optometry/business/psychology! (no pressure...)

then theres guys, which are total issues within themselves

now that i think about it ... i keep thinking why i ended the relationship
and I think, I only ended it because of fear or responsibility

fear because things could get worse for the both of us and things would never be the same or the responsibility I had as a person to stop hurting my parents, himself, and myself

I didn’ tlove him enough

And he probably doesn’t either, because he’s sick to death-bored talking to me.

But whatever, it’s none of my business anymore
I want to get over it, right now.

I want to hand in my QTAC application without anymore thoughts.
And is it really true that you can’t find a career in the world if you study Psychology?

I like psychology, why can’t I study it? Even if it’s difficult to find a job, I will still be studying Business as a double degree too wont i? Why can’t I study what I want?

Why can’t I study something I’m actually genuinely interested in?

Oh well, that’s life I guess, nothing ever works out.
At least something did though, or is going to; I’ll tell him soon…

Tweet tweet!

i like french fries, they're very cute and small.

especially at maccas where they're really cheap

UNLIKE THE FORMAL!

21st september

bah, it makes me want to barf.

what an expensive lot of spending money spent on one night

oh well, too late now, gonna go have fun on the night!

which reminds me...i have to continue compiling that music playlist for our STRETCH HUMMER

would've been uber cool if we managed to get the stretch FERRARI though... but thats in the UK.. bummer >_>

oh well.

theheheh formal

it finally hit me in the face that we're actually going.

and its next week

hurrah!

*barfs*

ciao & goodnight! :]

oh! and before i leave, i want to leave with a cute little message from twitterer shitmydadsays:

"Here's a strawberry, sorry for farting near you...Hey! Either take the strawberry and stop bitching, or no strawberry, that's the deal."

i wonder what strawberries and french fries together tastes like...

Untitled.

as much as it was a lovely day,
it was also an absolute fucker of a day.

Enough said.
Bye ☺

POKEMONNNNN

OHMYGAWWWWWWD

QCS + exams are over

i am fucking rejoicing

*FUCKING REJOICING*

YAYYYY

oh guess what i did today?
*you ask: Whaaat..? (in a really bored tone)*

i cleaned out my closet todayyy~ and i found a load of toys and junk related to pokemon.

hehe

i think i am pokemon obsessed..just a little bit.

i found a marill plus toy from when i was 12, a HEAP of pokemon keyrings (rayquayza! + 'little star pokemon thing!' and PLUSLE) XD... and hmm little pokemon toys that came out of ice cream (found on my trip to thailand one year) a money box, and a whole heap of pokemon related thingies

which reminds me to go bother dinh about giving me my pikachu toy back.. he's had it for over 8 months *grr*

though its now time to go be a bum

*plays pokemon*

byebye :]

we love to cram

in relation to the above statement, schooling is very important since it provides a gateway into the future and what we, the adolescents, want to become when we 'grow up'.

but schooling and studing for twelve years makes you tired and procrastinate a lot, especially when you're in your last year and exhausted from the mountains of work, teachers breathing down your neck about deadlines, the QCS exam, exam block and simply, the term of your life.

it sucks being a senior sometimes i'll tell you that

so much things to do, so little time, and i shouldn't even be blogging now because i need a shower and i want to nap >_<

ahh..how long? in.. 3 days, the seniors of FLC and the rest of queensland will be sitting the QCS exam! hurrah! basing our marks on the QCS and our SAIs in school, the QSA determines our OP/rank and we get admitted into university/college/TAFE to study some fucking more for our fucking futures.

harrharr, this will be exciting

with everyone lacking sleep and food and most importantly (sort of), fun!

but once this is all over... in under two weeks, we'll be able to relax all we like for a coming 4 weeks (last week of term 3 + holidays) and look forward to term four where we can all bullshit around :3

but it would be nice to relax now

but just you wait world, im going out after all this! i've suppressed myself a LOT from going out

but after that, i'm gonna go have some fun bitches muahahaha

oh yeah, today formal tickets were due, i paid for mine

and i dont really want to go because its a waste of time and money (for now) and i made it clear walking up the stairs and saying "OMGGG THE FORMAL..WHAT A WASTE OF TIME AND MONEY" and guess whos walking down the stairs? my formal buddy and his friends of course. oh joyous, lucky me.

i wonder what he thinks of me now, LOL

oh well...formal should be fun (keyword: should)

oh... i want to write a list of all the things i'm going to do after these exams:

• botanic gardens and go bike riding
• ice skating
• read, read, read! (especially Surrender, by Sonya Hartnett)
• decrease panadol and V intake
• reshelf my bookshelf
• redecorate my walls
• city bum (a lot)
• to be continued..

WAHAHHA i can't until all this is over.

but before then, i have to do well! and wish me luck! ♥

ciao ~

i strongly heavily dislike you very much

J_______ I_____ i dislike you very much

and i think you should mind your own fucking business and figure things out on your own

because i'm through with you taking my notes, looking at my study answers

and especially i'm through being friends with you, because i thought you would have been considerate enough to ask for help on this assignment

but no

you're just like me, aren't you?

just cut the bullshit and straight to it

'is this all the information needed for the assignment? can you print it for me?'

i might be exaggerating about it

but i'm fucking through with you

i can't stand you anymore

and i think you should leave me the fuck alone

i stressed for two weeks straight over it

i'm grateful for the help given to me,

but obviously that help came from anywhere but you

but you

you can get your way anytime, whenever you like can't you?

well

FUCK YOU

Stand on your own two feet and study yourself, why don't you?

bad days

"It is human to want to leave everything"

i had such a crap day today. everyones feeling so much pressure to fit in, to be who they are, to do well at school, to please their parents and relatives, to have fun, to be independant, to love.

i just dont get it! why all this? i guess in year 12 things just start getting harder and harder and you need to find a balance between everything. but the trouble is, it is really hard to find that 'balance' because everything is so pressing upon you, all that plus the extra little issues we find in our everyday lives (depending on what your 'everyday' is)

lena's having max problems where he's leaving to sydney or melbourne because his friend was shot and his gang wants revenge. that and he worried lena half to death because she lost him and drove around like crazy trying to look for him. and the fact that lena is still halfway in between max and dinh is also pretty complicated

jason is going to get hurt again because of a stupid rumour. some girl thinks he likes her, told her boyfriend, who told everyone and now he's getting bashed. then theres this Lewis guy whos out to get jason and his friends for no apparent reason. and then theres us which is a problem in itself.

i have the problem of ashen too. we're 'buddying' for the formal, but we dont 'bond' very well and our conversations aren't very natural and free flowing. we're just not used to each other and dont quite feel comfortable yet.

that and all of these assessments, the QCS, regular school work, my incompetent driving and exam block. its quite a lot to handle. though, these problems aren't mine and i have it pretty easy because i dont seem to have any issues or anything, but i still worry about my friends and family. today my parents started arguing (really loudly) about things, with my grandmother there watching the whole thing right after dinner. it was terrible, but it could be worse.

its term three, week four-five and life can be pretty tough and endearing at the moment. but i'm sure we'll all live through this somehow. i'm just being pessimistic because i had a bad day at school today where i dont feel like i fit in anywhere. but i guess we all feel like that sometimes

i guess its just ... sort of like, a fleeting moment of lonliness. because i really wish that when i see tony, and when i hug him... i really wish our hugs could last longer. but thats not going to happen, because i think he's embarrassed to hug any girls in front of his friends. and his friends are around a lot. so yeah.

i dont know. just lonely i guess, and theres no one to really tell.

i wish i could talk to you tony, but i dont think i'll be able to carry a converstation very well.

and i would be a burden on you too.

well its getting late, goodnight and ciao ~
PS> i'm not asking for anybodys sympathy, so just leave it :)

fragmentation updates

i'm not going to apologize for not posting any updates because NOBODY READS THIS BLOG ANYWAY, except for you lena

stop reading lena, now shoosh.

anyhowwwww

these past few weeks so far are absolutely crazy because there are assessments flown at our fresh year12 faces every week! once one assessments done, we get another.. woohoo

and whats even more exciting is that our finals are in 4 weeks.
hurrah! im ecstatic!
Not.

i can't wait until these next 6 weeks are over, then it'll be the holidays and then term 4 which will be an easy cruise!
but for now, we gotta struggle and fight the will of suicide! we will make it! somehow!

i have... an english speech to do tomorrow afternoon and i'm sure i'm going to be a nervous wreck (as i always am)
i unecessarily worry about silly trivial things

like today, going driving with my driving instructer, oh gosh
two children and a dog were walking on the footpath along a road with heavy traffic and i'm driving about 30metres in front of the zebra crossing the kids walk up the side of the road (to wait to cross) and i'm sitting behind the wheel thinking

'DONT CROSS CHILDREN, I DONT WANT TO BE PROSECUTED BY YOUR PARENTS, OH NO, PLEASE DONT CROSS, THE DOG! THE DOG! PLEASE DONT CROSS.. WAIT WAIT! OHMYGOD SOMEONES GOING TO LOSE THEIR KIDS'

but as reality clicks, the children didn't cross and i didn't run them over. (thank the lord)

and i almost ran over two ducks and a bird today
literally, i said 'ARGH OH NO A DUCK!' to my driving instructor

i unnecessarily worry about trivial things
or in the least, worry too much about everything

oh well... then there are some things that i dont worry or care about at all in the least
eg. the formal

i'm not very excited at all
its all 'yeah.. money wasting once in a lifetime scheme'
and its not only me who thinks this way!

but yes, transportation and seating arrangements are sorted
and all thats left now is everything else
hurrah.

i hope ashen isn't too disappointed to know that we're formal buddies
i'm certainly not disappointed, i only wish that he won't be and that he'd be less shy and talk more often~
but thats the case with meeting new people right? even though we go to the same school and know the same people, we're still new to each other :3

oh well, what else has been happening lately besides school and formal
ah thats right...NOTHING! because no functional social life is present at this time in year 12 right before the finals

however, i did attend a few university open days (QUT - by myself, and UQ - with jason and nhu) and i plan on taking a trip to the museum to do some hands on research for some resources and references of biology notes for our upcoming biology exam (and hopefully that day, i'll hit cue city and play pool too)

but other than that, i have no functioning social life

but i do have functional issues
like the one with jason
where its all 'I LOVE YOU LEANNE' and i'm all 'i like you too'
but what i do understand is theres no chance at all of us getting back together during this year
its just too much of an important year

that and the fact that my parents will lose their minds if anything like that were to come between our families again, (if you could say, between..)

but then again, theres still tony (who i still have a little somethingsomething for, but its negligible)

oh well
life is all screwed up.

it shouldn't bother me much right? because i'm only trying to survive :3

well its now 11.19pm and i should go sleep, ciao!

giant leap of faaaaaaaith

TODAY i turned down loc dinh

and asked ashen how he felt about purple

TODAY i flushed my dreams of tony down the drain

and forgot all about jason

OH i am so stuffed.

HAHA. this formal better be awesome bitch

OTHER than that i had a fantastic day (not)

and i need to work on english

OPEN day was shit and hot and boring

and so is english

WISH me luck!

and ciao ♥

twirl for me

heyyy there~ guess what? today is MONDAY and you know what that means? pay-alex-a-deposit for the formal stretch hummer thingy TODAY of which i did !

and ooh err

its rather trippy, this whole formal pizzazz. bah

formal buddies! i need one..where to find one... gawd, why are there so many i-wants involved? ..ahh oh well..

SUCK MY BALLS FORMAL

(that is if i had any, of which i dont)

loc isn't optionless... but ashen is .. maybe i'll say yes to him

but ..TONY! bah, this whole thingy is frikkin confusing as

ah forget it. i was gonna recap on this weekend~

went shopping with mother to look at formal dresses on saturday, i was literally bored shitless and trying on dresses was such a pain in the ass. found a nice purple on at wayne cooper (750, sale -> $400) and a nice one from Lisa Ho ($1500) and a really nice cream coloured lightweight soft luxurious dress from Cathy something something in wintergarden... ($700)

so after much quarrelling i decided to go to the formal and decided to get the pretty grape purple wayne cooper dress (which is uber versatile so i could wear it almost anywhere, even convertible to strapless/non strapless and sleeves/sleeveless and adaptable tieable ribbons..mm purty) but yes on sunday i went to the city to pick up the dress and met up jason

and went to buy the dress with him and yes it was quite strange.

the saleswoman was hilarious though

L: 'uhh.. i wanted to..show a good friend of mine for his opinion'

Saleswoman: 'oh you need a second opinion? where is he? i'll go get him! is he the boy sitting on the bench?'

L: 'haaha! yes i think so!'

Saleswoman: 'oh my, he'll think i'm completely crazy *runs off and drags jason into the store*'

*silence*

L: 'umm what do you think?'

Saleswoman: 'do a twirl for him to see!'

J:'....its great'

she was quite the woman, and i liked her very much

then i walked jason back to wherever he was meeting his friends, said a quick goodbye and tried to find a bus to QUT to get to the open day since... i was supposed to meet up with colin and tiana~

i finally found a bus heading to kelvin grove and asked the bus driver if the bus went to KG. and he was like 'uhh.this bus goes to the QUT busway, it'd be better if you were more specific' so i hopped on anyway

and just as i turned away from the bus driver this lovely girl on the bus who seemed to be a student there maybe? said 'you're on the right bus~'

she had black hair, plaited neatly to one side, pink flats, black and white checkered jumper and big sunnies - thank you oh so much! i owe so much to you because if you hadn't let me know i would have been stuck in the middle of chelmer somewhere, so thank you so much!

and thanks to the speakers and uni professors from QUT for all the helpful talk about the university subjects and courses - it really helped me get my head around things!

and thanks to jason for his awesome help on choosing a dress for the formal.. even though all it was was 'it looks great *thumbs up*'

but yes, after QUT for about 3 hours walking about and talking stuff out i finally made my way back to the city to have lunch at Tonini's at Broadway where i ran into one of mums friends! she was great~ we chatted, asked how she was doing, just the basics and greeted her once more before heading off to walk across that mega bridge to southbank

along the way i had to walk past the casino and as i crossed the road i heard this really melodramatic flute music playing over the heavy rush of traffic and it sounded absolutely wonderful ! i would've thought it was playing from a band or something from the casino? but turns out it wasn't! it was a busker sitting outside the casino playing a traditional chinese flute instrument i think

but nonetheless, it sounded great - but being me, i just walked past and enjoyed 10 seconds of the music

so then, i sat down.

and pulled out my wallet and walked back towards the asian guy with his chinese flute and put all of whatever that was left of my spare change into his brown cap and smiled

what a nice guy.

i honestly dont remember a day where i said 'thank you' so many times in my life so far

and i'm honestly saying, thanks to everyone who helped me out on that day because if it weren't for you i'd still be totally dumb about what uni courses i wanted to take and whether i was on the right bus to kelvin grove or not etc

thanks so much~

and i shall leave you with a few nice lyrics by Weezer~

You can’t find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And
I wanna feel it too

We’ll run away together
We’ll spend some
time
forever ♥

ciao!

the buddy system

hello~ been slack on blogging lately coz so much crap has been happening and i really can't be bothered documenting every tiny little itty thingy thats been going ons, but then again, no one really reads this so whats the point. muahaha

ah well, i'm only blogging to rant on about formal shits anyway and how shitty it seems.

but before that, i wanna recap yesterday because it was an awesome day :]

early at abouts 5pm, woke up and prepared uniform to go the business breakfast for legal, hospo and BOM students and ooh it was exciting even thought everyone was so uber sleepy! we showed up on college bus to the rydges hotel and phwoahhh.. its nice. not five-star-jaw-dropping, but still very nice and cosy

the rooftop was the best part where glass covered one half of the walls and you could see across to the city and the wheel of brisbane and along southbank. everything looked so small and it made me think 'wow, we're so liiiiittle!' or in a more intelligent context.. 'humans are uber small creatures and only a small part of this world' and its pretty cool how everything out there is a lot bigger than us, but when we set our mind to something we can take over the world itself (y)

(excuse the mushy anecdotes)

so yesh, the students went around and mingled and ran into some college alumni! like waiwai! it was so good to see her again :] then we had an old english breakfast and listened to waiwai's and mr david liddy's (CEO of bank of queensland) speeches and they cleared our plates while the speeches were going on and so to be polite, we decided to stop eating and listen to the speeches

and they cleared my plate

with 2/3 of the save-until-last hash brown and a small scoop of scrambled eggs

i really wanted that last bit of hash brown, damn, why did we have to be so polite..!

so yes, we had breakfast, mingled with business people for a while (mingled as in, hi my names leanne *eats breakfast*) and then we left on the college bus and arrived back at school

then continued school and loc's little 18th birthday get together at the village where we ate chocolate ice cream cake and had strange awkward moments together

we all met up, the asian viet guys, me alex and nhu and BAM! tony and ady and their asian taiwanese group

tony: "make a wish for me loc! *holds hands in heart shape*"
loc: "....what is it?"
nhu: "i think its his heart thats beating for you"
HAHA.

we all sang happy birthday and eventually everyone left except loc cong phu cuong and myself ~
we bummed at the lake and played tiggy and kicked around shoes and vodka cruiser bottles and watched the sunset together (L)

and then loc decided to be confusing and say "leanne would you like to go to the formal with me?"
and so, i replied with a "...what?"

yeah, smart move leanne.

but i told him i'd think about it.
but hey, the same day, ashen asked too... via text.
while we were sitting around eating ice cream cake. LOL

and now i'm totally confused about formal because a) i dont know if i'm going and
b) i've been asked as a 'formal buddy'

but well and truly for some reason, i was half expecting jason to bring up the formal because from what i remember he seemed to want to go. but as change of events have happened, i dont think he does anymore. so not my problem.

on the other hand... i sort of... maybe...out of my league...would enjoy going with tony.
but then again, we're so different. he has his asian groupie and i have my own friends you know? and i guess it would be a little strange too. that and the fact that he probably doesn't want to go with me anyway and he might not be going either.

so ooh err.

then after lake-ing with loc and co. i went to indro to look at formal dresses and found none too pretty or appealing because i'm so flat and so not into dresses and shit

but i bought a book instead

lewis carroll's vintage classic book of 'alice's adventures in wonderland and through the looking glass' and.... *sighhhhh* i want to read it but i'm afraid if i read it all in a few nights it'll be over too soon.... ah the love of books T^T

oh yes... so skipping back to today now...

after school i walked home with ashen today... it was nice and normal. normal talk and normal stuffs and it was really cool :]

and i need an action plan to figure out if i want to go to this bloody formal or not. because i have to decide by monday because we have to make bookings for the stretch hummer

and so far the tallys 4 for black and 3 for pink coloured stretch hummer....
PINK... D:

haha but i dont know, i hope things sort themselves out soon because i'm not sure what to do about anything right now...

and i hope jason will bring up the formal sometime so i can sort this out, i dont want to bring it up with him because its weird since....i broke up with him and i'm being stubborn and stupid.

but i wont be able to get anywhere with tony

and now that i think about it, neither will i with jason.

yeah.. things should work out for themselves soon because i really cannot decide. ashen and loc are both so nice and they're both my friends... and they're friends with each other too

if i said yes to one of them, i'd have to reject the other.

ah shit.

well... wish me luck with my crappy decision making skills

ciao!

silver invitations

today is the 16th of july and at about 3.10pm the senior students of forest lake college received their silver-blue enveloped invitations to the senior formal on the 21st of september and personally, it makes me want to hurl

i'm so unprepared, i still dont have a dress and all that stuff and i dont know if i want to go or not...
at the moment i only want to go because its a 'once in a lifetime' opportunity and.. the fact that i want to ride in a stretch hummer (lol)

but besides that, its so friggin expensive and time consuming and a total pain in the ass

and then again, i woulnd't know if it was a pain in the ass unless i really went now would i?

i dont know if i should go... eh...

everyone else is so excited about the formal and everything and i'm just sitting there quietly thinking 'i'll go if the venue has balconys'

because its always nice to go to a formal outing anywhere with nice balcony's overlooking the city :3

but other than that, i dont see any other reasons to go

seating plans, transportation ($900 p/hr *omfg*), dress, shoes, mani/pedi, hair, makeup, date...

call me picky, lazy, unorganised, stubborn or unenthusiastic because 'i haven't got anything sorted yet' but... it definitely doesn't persuade me to attend

whatever it is thats bothering me, it better be sorted by the 28th of august and i'd better make up my mind soon

i gotta head off, ciao~